9:52 PM
slept late these few days.
because so many things running through my mind when i lie down on my bed.
tried to focus on my breathing, but in the end thought of stupid things again.
hmm what should i post in u?
hmmmmmmm
mmmhhhhhh
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our eyes met.
but u drew yours away.
chat with u.
but u insisted that i was the one who took away my love for u, and you are not the one starting it.
what can i say?
i hate it when u compare.
how can i be compared with such a person, whom u have known long ago?
to think of it,
mayb im not worth it.
yea. im certainly not.
im just born to waste my life away.
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found someone, who has a similar sad face as mine.
wahaha.
now i know why sometimes i have a sad face, without knowing it.
hmmx.
coz i go into deep thoughts in my own world without realising.
haha..
but why am i having such a small brain?
hurrr.
time check-
very late.
should complete my stupid rj,
and cry to sally tonight.
-kisses
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9:24 PM
i admit.
im fat.
im not pretty.
err.
and i am not tall.
hmm..
k dun wanna say so much bad stuffs of myself.. later i cry in my bed..
this is the shock-iest part..
i was doing survey with this 20-25 aged guy..
me: bla bla bla (survey questions)
guy: thats it?
me: yes..
guy: which company are u from?
me: research plus. doing a project for singapore tourism board.
guy: how much do u earn?
me: 7 per hr.
guy: what time to what time?
me: 11-4 (getting a bit pissed)
guy: interested to earn 500 a week?
me: err.. no. (rolls eyes)
guy: HUH. 35 a day, u want.. 500 a week, u dun want? (laughs)
me: so which company are u from? (smiles)
guy: same lo.. research company..
me: orh.. do u have a name card? (smiles)
guy: i give u my number..
me: stares at him (blanks.. LIKE SO OBVIOUS U ARE CHEATING ME LO)
guy: can u write it down somewhere?
me: (sianed. flips some paper) UH HUH..
guy: 9*******, gary.
me: ok.
guy: call me k?
me: (smiles,
yea.. go and die)pathetic right..
want to cheat some XIAO mei mei also dun have the style to cheat.
sucker.
somemore cheat ppl with brains.
wah liao.. really NO BRAIN LEH.
hehehe. sorry for self praising. heez.
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12:01 AM
lied to myself for the whole day.
hurr.
in the morning, studied on glycolysis.
was telling myself.
"yea study liaoo.." but in my other side of the brain ar.. "still have citric acid cycle, gluconeogenesis and oxidative stress leh.."
thats one lie.
skipped lunch and dinner.
ate breakfast and supper instead.
thats two lies.
went up to ppl for suvey, got rejected, but insist that some will still say "oh. whats it abt?"
thats three.
still alot more..
like so sian lo..
today. went at 4.
started work at 5.30
waste my 1 and 1/2 hr watching ppl stroll.
neh mind. today only earn like 21.
and somemore say tml i work in the morning shift..
i think its like 11-4 or something..
then plus.. im doing the counting thing.
which is like only 5.50 per hr?!
omg.. y like so little...?
then i cannot earn 80 le lo..
money fly away liao.
only earn 45.
minus away transport and food = 30
:(
and what do i gain?
some smiles from guys. smirks from ladies. cries from baby boys. and stares from aunties.
eh. im only there to do survey what.
do i look that terrible?
but i do appreciate the nice smiles that some kind ladies and young lads gave me.
and i saw quite a few handsome guys..
aged from 19-25..
whoa..
BUT.. too bad.. the survey didnt have a column for contact no.
wahahaha.
k.. time check..
-v late.-
time to acc sally for a while k?
muacks.
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9:42 PM
that is aizat. with me.
wonders why my hand so pale. :(
and my eye bags so hurrrr.... :'(
well.. we went to pastamania ate a total of 10.80
and bought some magic equipments for 10.80
like so co-incidence lo!
lol.. and he bought an additional CHECKS-flip sandal.
wanted to buy it too.. but wasnt 2 for 22.90
was one for 35.90.. i think..
and thank u for helping me be my 'kor kor'
lol.. AND AND..
i think the uncle selling ice cream along the road, outside our sch likes me!!
coz aizat was buying ice cream, and that uncle gave me a free ice cream.
orh.. *shys*
aizat was SO JEALOUS LA..
@$#^%^&@*
scrolll down moreeee.. and SEE!
this is some bacillus (bacteria)
cool right?
lol.. we get to identify the bacteria by their morphology through the microscope.
and it took me practicing 5 slides to get a result of this!
well. the image is quite blur.. should be better. -curses kelv's phone-
and AND.. the gram-staining can be done better by smearing 1/4 of a colony.. heee.
anyway.. i love microbiology.
so cool~
and i get to take immunology, RNA and cell culture next sem!
wow.. i think lots of lab sessions will be waiting for the biotech students for RP..
cant wait! [but misses this sem's class, its a really great class.. esp rendall (my darl).. wahaha]
some other teams found something like 'E.coli' shaped bacteria in their pure culture..
lol.. so PLS. dun drink water from the 4th level's water cooler.
and SINCE the water flows from floor to floor in RP,
its better to just bring boiled water from home than risk urself.. :)
ok.. thats it for today.
nitex
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9:07 PM
i dunno what to put for my title..
but that is an innocent title.
ya know what?
i find myself loving my family more and more.
mayb too much change in relationship in friends, result me in believing my family compared to friends.
BUT, sometimes, cannot trust ur familiy 100%.. esp when they say, "if u still dun pack ur table, ur things will be gone the next day."
WHATEVER~
nvm abt that..
went home super early today.
so made an attempt to eat dinner at the new canteen.
super nice food! wee~
bathed, ate ice, iron clothes, washed clothes, dried the clothes, folded the clothes.
im such a GOOD GIRL..
praise me!
yeaps.. and sherline told me last min that im not confirmed on the list for that surveyor thing.
hmmx..
hope i can EARN around 80 this weekends!
*cross fingers*
and if im not working tml night..
then i will be joggin!
yay.. no more lazying. u have to stand for robbie!! (for the concert)
wahahaha.
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10:38 PM
do u have any idea who u are slping with?
there is a role to play.
ur ideas of fantasizing will develop into sweet dreams.
GOOD NIGHT!
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10:08 PM
- of things running through my mind
- of ants runnin around in the kitchen
- of criticisms around me
- ppl who looked down on me
- of carefree ppl in the world
- of water to drink
- of kisses to sally
- of things to complete
- of days to holidays.. (cmon.. hurry!)
- of clothes in my wardrobe
- of microbes in ur underwear
- of thoughts
why is the fruit orange named orange?
if it is named after the colour, then, y aint the durian call green?
NONONO.. then pear can be called green. and green apples too..
wahaha. i know le! coz there aint any other fruits which are orange in colour right?
correct me if im wrong. :)
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2:08 PM
i was checking my received files..
coz i need to open up the applied chem wksht that sherline sent me.
and i saw this file - pls dont over react.
i hope u dun mind if i publish it.
it brought back hell lots of memoirs in me.
sorry.
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and i did over react in the end.
now..
its not in my com anymore.
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9:03 PM
the ants in my house are evolving.
i think 10 years from now, they will have gills or something like frogs,
being able to survive in wet and dry land.
know WHY?coz, the dear precious pandan cake,
on top of bowl, in the middle of a plate filled with water,
was attacked by ants.
i think they should change their name soon.
cannot be called ants or ma yi..
to keep up with the evolution time..
they should be called something like..
antfisheri.. wahahaha..
too much microb le..
oops..
and mum and dad say they are not sponsoring for my lessons and whatever for learning to drive.
:(
not even 1/8 or even a hundred.
hmph.
realised that u need a patient mind when u drive.
because driving is like facing the reality all at once.
things keep coming and passing u all the time.
sometimes u notice them, sometimes u dun.
and when u are careless or have done a wrong thing,
u might have to pay a fine or do a u-turn for 'punishment'
anyway..
this might be a chance to let me prove to my parents that i am grown up.
im getting a job!
yeaps hols are coming.
to hell with applied chem!
and and..
i wanna congrats myself..
coz i got my first A for genetics ut.
bwahahaa.
but.. just hope it will help to average out the c's and d's i have..
still think that its a great achievement overall..
jia you!
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10:39 PM
yeaps.. had my sakae sushi..
from my JUST-CERTIFIED-GENIE, isaac.
thank u.. :)
he says that this pic is nice.
coz he can only appear better in my phone.
;P
so had my sushi buffet, with around 24 plates of norm plates. and 2 colored plates. one with raw salmon.. WHOAA... love love.
he bought a zippo lighter, and showed me some tricks that he had practised before.
cool. like those bartender, who offer u lights when u take out ur cigs.
enough of sakae-ing. wont be eating it again after months..
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today's ut sucked great time again.
six bloody questions in thirty mins.
i think applied chem is full of shit.
no point studyingHAHAHAHA.
i feel happy for now. coz i had my SALMON. :) woo~
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6:21 PM
it has been a tiring week.
not studies.
but the wake for my great grandmother.
slept for only 2 hrs.
learnt to played tai-tee during the dreamy night.
went for the cremation early in the morning.
sorry to the surrounding blocks of neighbours.
the trumpeter is damn dumb. he keeps blastin.
just couldn't tolerate how u ppl act.damn it. she is goin away in peace and u have to make things diff.dun start to realise that u havent done enough when the person is gone.for god's sake, just control ur wild thoughts.---------------------------------------
neh mind.
may she go in peace.
:)
when u leave, ur memories will stay.
in us, forever.
sudd having an urge for raw salmon!!n i want my pirates of the carribean.and to hell with applied chem ut tml!
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12:52 AM
went to the wake.
things are really happening.
there was a friendly and small visitor.
it rested under the flower petals in front of her photo since noon.
felt so relieved, as if she is back again.
looking and hearing over us.
like what she had been doing all the time.
i will love butterflies forever.
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2:16 PM
As the candle dies down,
And the room grows dark,
I shut my eyes and think.
I think about love,
And I think about life,
As a smile crawls on my face.
But then my smile runs away,
As I think of my love and life,
That I live day after day.
My eyes, still shut, flicker,
And a tear falls from them,
As all my happiness is washed away.
from some web page.
accept it;
jieying.
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11:38 PM
in a day, u are trying to live.
in a night, u are gone.
im in no mood for anything.
dun bother telling me, she is old, she has to go.
it wont work.
i know its a fact.
but.
i cant accept.
i need to be alone.
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9:32 PM
SOME RANDOM QUESTIONS
1.Who is the person you admire most in the world?
my dad.2.What is one thing you hope to get out of life before you die?
troubles.3.Have you ever done something, but regretted it later?
yes. all the time.4.Have you ever cheated on someone you were going out with?
hmmx.5.Describe what it feels like to be in love.
well. u will feel happy when ur love one is.6.Have you ever wished for true love?
who doesnt? -.-7.If you could change one aspect of your life instantly, what would it be?
i like it as it is. god's nature. accept it.8.If you could relive your life, what would you do differently?
i will migrate to australia's countryside, and ride on horses everyday.9.When you were litte, what did you want to be when you grew up?
actress, doctor, cashier, shop owner, sell hokkien mee, surgeon, clothes designer, list goes on.10.If you were President, what would you do?
no.. i dun want to be such a famous person.11.If you could fly anywhere in the world, where would you go?
everywhere.12.Have you ever told someone you loved them but not really meant it?
hmmx.13.Have you ever told someone you hated them but not really meant it?
hmmx.. X214.Suggest a musical group for me to listen to.
CLICK FIVE.15.Suggest a website for me to go to.
www.sally.com (does it pop up?)
16.Suggest a TV show for me to watch.
kids central- high 517.Have you ever cheated on a test?
yeaps. and im proud of it.18.Have you ever been caught passing notes in class and had the teacher read your note aloud to the whole class?
well. i do pass notes in class. but.. i have skills. i put them in a storybook and pass it around. :)19.What is your favorite website?
i will say..
www.xxx.comLMAO.
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8:50 PM
i wanna talk about sex hormones today.
yeaps.. TODAY.
lol.
have u ever notice that women age from 40-60 are more plump?
ever wonder WHY WHY?
coz of this hormone call ESTROGEN.
females LOVE estrogen.
coz they help to develop the breasts.
making it bigger.
-winks-
and have high sex drives..
WOW..
females HATE estrogen when...
it overpowers the pregesterone and are store in different parts of the body with the fatty tissues..
making the whole body even more flabby.
results in plump-ing.
so SO..
ladies..
in order to prevent this.
ya must exercise.
hehe.
even if u dun..
make sure u walk to sch.
i think the distance is able to cover more than 1000 steps.
:)
and for guys..
if u are using tongkat ali.
pls stop.
exercising will help u improve the blood flow to the penis than this oral med.
hehe..
i will read up more on the hormones when i have the time.
interesting stuff.
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10:33 PM
starry eyes.
lol.
ut ytd sucked..
aint gonna comment much.
but sherline was cute.
she was railing all the way from sch to the station all abt her cancelling the retrotransposon at the very last minute.
met izzy.
took a stick.
bleh.
was in the mood for it.
:)
and he bought me a deck.
wahaha.
today was lazily gone as well.
went to sch for the cpf challenge (inter-polytechnic).
top scorer scored 400,000 plus..
wont a sony laptop.
how i wish i know him.
LOL.
for the lucky draw.. didnt get anything as well.
sad.... :(
but gained 2 NDA.. hehe.
went to pastamania with Ajin.
he gave me the present that he bought from his hometown.
and back to sch to prac magic with JL.
didnt really prac though.
had talk-cock-session again.
conclusion for the day:
must slp before 11.
ciaoz.
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10:21 PM
i know the answer to my previous post!
we buy new things or stuffs coz its a motivation in our life.
when we are unable to find someone to soothe us with the necessary sentences,
unable to find a partner to speak to.
u get a non-living thing.
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i love the way LOVE bond my family together. esp between mum and dad.i study my parents everyday.i like the way their love is being shown to each other.for instance, every morning, my dad will kiss my mum on the face and give a smack on her butt.my mum will make coffee for my dad.and my dad will wash the cups.every night, my mum will complain her work stuffs to my dad.my dad will listen with the tv off.my dad will then scold at times. (very rare)and my mum will start to giggle, and tickle his chin when he got all pissed off.on weekends, my dad will drive me to work.though its only a 10 minutes walk from my home.then drive my grandparents to see my greatgrandmother.AT LEAST, he made the effort.in the afternoon,my mum will cook lunch.and all of us will try out her skills.out of 10 times, only 4-5 times made us satisfied.if it is uneatable, my dad will still eat it all up, and give a smile.my mum will say "dun eat la, dun eat la."my bro and me will be busy searching for ketchup to spice up the dish.if it is eatable, she will be smiling throughout the lunch.and all of us will be busy eating.and when we go for family shopping.me and my bro will purposely walk behind them.and look at how they walk.from down the block, they will be walking alone.soon after, when the hands knock into one another for 2-3 times, then they will be holding hands.i love the way they hold their hands.i love the way they kiss.i love the way they sleep.when i see them being happy, my day will be filled with happiness as well.what a big sacrifice for love.
i love u,
for the happy times only.:)
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11:40 PM
somewherei will be able to find a place where i am able to live in warmth.oh my.. sch is like snow city.brrr.mum scolded me AGAIN.for not helping to hang the clothes.she DUN understand.even when i told her, i reached home at 9.15 and im having a test tml.then she will come up with reasons:-better manage ur time properly.-stop tutorin ur friend-u are having two ccas-better improve ur grades.and i cried after she left the room.what an understanding mum.shoo.
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10:47 PM
thinking of getting a new phone.
but dun wanna spend too much on it.
thinking of getting magic rings.
but dun wanna spend too much on it as well.
thinking of getting a new laptop.
but dun wanna spend too much on it as well.
wonders.
why are humans always looking forward to new things?
well. my brother prefers new textbooks, while i prefer used text books.
i prefer new clothes, and my brother prefers to wear the same thing all over again.
other than this.
for instance,
when ur mouse is not even spoilt yet.
and u have a temptation to change it.
interesting.
anyway. posted a pic in my friendster.
edited using picasa from yahoo.
i think its cool.
SEE. i told ya. i only look nice occasionally when taking photos.
:X
http://www.friendster.com/4927693nitex
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4:28 PM
stayed at home for the whole of the morning plus noon.
will be working later.
so tiring.
plus. my back aches..
boring
but found out some new stuffs.
i was talking to gary on msn, when he replied me using a mic.
so COOL la.
its like an emoticon with a play button.
and when u feel like it, u can play it multiple times.
or u can even save it.
i saved them.
:)
next thing, there was a fly in the previous vial.
well, it just hatched from the pupa.
it was completely a mutant!
white eyes and no wings.
and i got so excited, i started to shake the vial to let it come to the top so i can transfer it to the eppendorf tube.
BUT. it dropped to the side of the food.
then i tilt it to one side,
the food came down onto the fly.
and the fly died.
yea. smart la.
too smart le.
-pats jieying's head-
lesson learnt: nv get too excited. no matter under what circumstance.
last thing.
i think i am sweet.
coz the ants keep finding me la.
cant get to get them off my table.
irritating.
hate ants.
keep appearing from nowhere under my hands.
and when u put that in real life.
its like when a guy keeps stalking u or pestering u in class.
IRRITATING.
just feel like using the chair or whatever to smash the guy's brains.
same to the ants.
use tissue and smash their heads.
BWAHAHAHAHA.
ants= guys= irritating.
k la.. only some la.
so wont generalise.
there are a few guys who arent that irritating.
coz i only talk to those who arent. :)
ants = irritating guys only.
therefore, deserved to be smacked.
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im looking forward to watch pirates of the carribean!
not to the ut on friday.
:O
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9:59 PM
today isnt great.
everybody presented except me.
:(
yeaps. felt bad abt it.
coz my team mates used up the time for presenting, and we havent even reach my slide yet.
confirm get c de lo..
plus i only ask a question.
:(
metabolism = dumb
im not studying anatomy..
so why study about metabolism in humans..
when u dun even study on the human body parts.
stupid system.
went home.
with that ultra super duper heavy laptop.
k i am carrying it everyday.
but it seems to be getting heavier day after day.
and the trip to sch is so far.
i wanna small, light, high resolution IBM!
gave joel tuition
plus had some talk-cock-session in between.
read FHM.
the models in there are not 100% pretty de lo..
its true that they have beautiful skin and have breasts..
but... the face.. plus the size..
HEHEHE. k im being bad..
bleh.
went home,
mum is getting pms.. or some weird thingy.
started to get angry over the things that i have done.
k this is what happened.
i found that there were lots of ants at the vial for the flies. (empty)
so i put it inside the zip lock bag and threw it away.
i dumped it inside the bin, when she came to the kitchen and shouted
"WHAT IS THAT?"
"the ants are in the thing liao. then it throw away lo."
"HUH.. LATER THE WHOLE BIN GOT ANTS. THROW THE WHOLE THING AWAY."
"but its in the zip lock bag lo."
"THROW THE WHOLE THING AWAY!"
-pulls the zip lock bag out of the bin.-
"U DUN UNDERSTAND AR? THE WHOLE PLASTIC BAG IN THE BIN!"
-at that time, my mind was thinking :
KNN LA. already got one protection liao still cannot.
want to throw the whole thing away.
plus the bin is not even half full.
...... then i threw the whole plastic bag down the rubbish chute.
i shall say AGAIN.
not a good day afterall.
started out bad. thats y.
shant explain more.
the only thing that brightens me up now is
.............. there will be no sch tml!!!
CHEERS!
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10:30 PM
since the day that we met.
i knew tat we will be together forever.
u lie in my bed, every night.
in my hands u hold on tight.
i thought i will nv let u go.
till the day u disappear,
i wasnt able to get u back.
till now, nuthin can ever replace ur presence.
how i miss u.
i think i need to get a new hadphone pouch..wahaha
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11:26 PM
we live in the game of love.
we live because of love.
we die partly because of love.
what a small word but hides a powerful meaning.
since i was able to speak,
my parents always wants me to say "papa, mama i love u."
they always tell me "u are a jie jie, must love ur bro."
when i was the age of ten, i do not understand why i need to have brother.
i hate him.
he is always touching my things.
asking me boring questions.
and we always end up fighting.
at the age of fourteen, i scolded him vulgarities.
made him cry.
stared at him.
disappointed my parents with my behavior.
i dun believe in love then.
i wanted to move out of my family.
get a living of my own.
hate them to the core, coz i dun get my freedom.
at the age of sixteen, started to understand more of what is happening around me.
analyse my cousins' behavior and thought abt the criticisms that some of relatives gave.
realise that most of them looked down on me.
so decided to give my best shot.
soon, i start to see the love that my parents gave me.
its always there but i dun see it.
their concern are taken as nags.
their love is taken as boredom.
their presence is always absent.
and i just kept on hiding.
however, understanding the love in family, is totally in the love for a friend.
i mean..
i live with my parents for 16 years, and that i started to understand them more.
a friend is someone who is not close to me.
but is willing to share my closest secrets, and sorrows.
i can nv do that to my parents.
telling them abt my sex life, all the naughty things i have did outside.. the list goes on.
i cant imagine their expressions...
but u can do that to a friend.
alicia, one of my closest friends, taught me how to treasure friendship.
we quarrelled almost every month in our sec sch days.
countless of "i forgive u" have been said.
i know her inside out. and so does she.
my first love to a friend.
and to my family.
though i have done lots to upset u.
i was just out of my curiosity.
im just in search of more fun.
im still learning.
forgive me, always.
because,
i will not be able to live without u.---------------------------------------------
yeaps. and i still hate sch.
tml's chemistry.
how worst can it get?
hope the terrorist comes to our sch.
and kidnap all the facs.
CHEERIOS!
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treasure them
9:49 PM
i am still in my lala land.
trying to adapt to the studies.
yeaps. science do sucks when it comes to theory and memorising.
i hate chem, biochem, microbio and genetics.
hell to all of the bacteria, potozoa, urea, flies..
hate u. hate u. HATE U!
love today.
but didnt really love today.
i just cant make up my mind.
i think its the dumb facs and the dumb grades that they gave.
HURR..
idiotic.
i am falling to a c-student.
:(
hate class.
hate u.
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met my pri sch friend.
victor.
love to see him again.
orh..
and the feeling of talking the past memoirs with an old long friend.
it just makes u smile and laugh throughout the whole conv.
humans change,
i change,
u change.
but theres one thing that nv changes in us.
our taste.
:)
y do i say that?
reason being.
we have too many common interests to begin with.
but its a bit embarrassing to say out.
i can see with my own eyes.
so does he.
lala. i am happy i got my old friend back.
-smiles-
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Dear Principle,
can i request to have an advance holiday?
pwease..
i am currently suffering from hating-school-season.
-bites fingernails-
regards,
Jieying
;)
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treasure them
9:14 PM
as u can see..
well, just came back from the brewery.
went with the school.
didnt thought that they will really give us mugs of beer to taste.
in the end, i enjoyed drinking.
sherline drank
-1 mug of tiger (alcoholic content, 5%)
-1/2 mug of anchor (alcohol content, 4.5%)
-1/2 mug of guinness (alcohol content, 4.5-5%)
i drank
-1/2 mug of tiger (alcoholic content, 5%)
-1/2 mug of baron (alcoholic content, 8.8%)
-1/2 mug of guinness (alcohol content, 4.5-5%)
we slept in the bus on our way back to school.
nice trip.
woke up and felt a bit more refreshed.
went to the toilet.
and sherline was already drunk.
she is really damn drunk lo.
i will not post her drunk photos.. as it seem a litte... WAHAHAHA.
ok.. she looks weird.
and she always bang against the walls when she walk.
she even asked me where to sit when the chair is right in front of her..
fun trip.
fun games.
fun drinks.
fun you.
fun me.
this is the first time im falling in love with beer.
muacks.
p.s IM NOT DRUNK.
trust me, im a good drinker.
;
treasure them
9:50 AM
something something happened last night.
and something something happened at mid night.
and something happened this morning when i woke up.
then i decided to stop smoking.
:)
smile people;
im not addicted.
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treasure them
9:09 PM
i have heard a story from a friend of mine who is a christian.
one day, an island was flooded.
and there was this man who was stranded on top of the rooftop of his house.
he prayed to god.
"oh god, please save me."
a day later, another man was rowing a boat, and noticed him on the rooftop.
he asked the other man if he wants to take a ride in his boat to safety,
but the man replied, "god will save me."
so off the man went.
soon after, the man started to pray to god again.
this time, god send a dog.
the dog was waddling in the water, and then jumped onto the rooftop with the guy.
he gave the man a log, but he threw it aside, thinking that god will save him.
so day after day, he prayed to god.
god then send the police to help him.
the man, starving with hunger, still denied the help.
he said "god will save me"
two days later, the man died.
he went to heaven, and saw god.
he then ask god "why didnt u save me, when i prayed so hard for u?"
god replied "i send a man, a dog and even police to help u out from the disaster. what more do u want?"
conclusion:
i feel that this is a story meant to be learnt.
nv ever neglect the people around u.
no matter how much they contribute to ur life,
to make u smile, laugh, cry, hate..
u learn and get help from them.
u do not expect the best out of everyone.
just give and take whatever u can.
at the end of the day, u make decisions for urself.
but when u suffer, or lose out from it.
u try to push the blame to other people without realising it.
sometimes, we take things for granted.
it is perfectly normal.
coz humans are not perfect.
all of us have mistakes.
life is nv fair.
but u can make ur life better by understanding more of what u are able to do.
so what can i do in my life?
am i treasuring mine?
a question that is worth asking..
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treasure them
9:38 PM
life is full of upsets.
surprisingly, we remember more of the unhappy ones,
coz it reminds us of a lesson to be learnt.
life is nv fair.
i have always try to accept it.
still it is nv as easy as it seems.
told myself that my great grandmother is still waiting for her time to come.
and she has to go through some time alone, as she is too strong.
today, went for a surprise visit.
regretted in the end.
what im trying to say is that.
just do good as much as possible.
sometimes, the good might be regrettable.
but somehow, it is worth it.
as in.. u do it out of ur own will.
and u dun really have to care for the end result..
im happy with the way with life now.
no matter happy or sad.
im gonna get through it.
accept it as it is.
thats life.
:)
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treasure them
10:49 PM
woke up due to the vibrating of the phone,
as there were missed calls and sms..
was still very tired from the match last night.
but it was a worth to watch thing.
germany got so stressed up that they always screwed up somewhere in their small corner kicks..
however, argentina have good and fast runners!
oh.. they are just so fast with their tactics..
the slow germany couldnt really chase..
STILL.. germany wins..
hahaha.
lucky.
went for the syf mass display competition today.
also known as youth celebration.
surprised that the prime minister came.
but was bored to death when he does his 'rehearsal'
coz he let us wait.
took hell lots of pics..
but abit blurr.. so sorry.. wont be putting it up.
i like tk's big canon, and also their church bell or whatever u call that..
it gives a very grand ending.
i like deyi's music, marching, gimmicks, drum major, everything..
haaa. coz im from deyi ma...
for bowen, i think their drum major was better than ours..
she threw real straight, and she didnt even dropped for a single time.
cool.
the band was very entertaining..(as usual)
in the end..
tk got the best display band award..
and deyi got the best drum major award.
to yunus:
firstly, i am not guilty of what i have done.
secondly, in my last post, i dun think i defamed u.
thirdly, i dun see any wrong in publicizing ur blog, since most of ur readers are my readers as well.
fourth-ly, i admitted my mistake ALREADY.
fifth-ly, my best friend is not my boot-licker. she can say whatever she wants of me.
its all over.
lets just stop this kind of nonsense.
as u mentioned in ur post,
im not worth every inch of ur gratitude.
so pls do what u say.
regards,
jieying.
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treasure them
ok.. thats it for today.
he says that this pic is nice.
so had my sushi buffet, with around 24 plates of norm plates. and 2 colored plates. one with raw salmon.. WHOAA... love love.
