hoppy 20.
trying to hippy hop around
loving what i hate :]
pms DUN rule me.
im quite random
!& WISHLIST
1. 45kg!
2. for transport to be gone from earth
3. people to be simple like sally
4. everybody to be bond like covalent bonds
5. perhaps can use ramachandran plot to check out if we are living life correctly..
yea. looked back on my time in sec sch days. playing in a marching band is not just about making friends, learning music. its more about coordination, and more of a team thingy, raising each other's spirits..
i was once given a task of getting all the snare to roll together and sound like one. i failed to complete the task of having all of my eight drummers to do it together, as showed in the video, and sounding like one. the most i can do is up to four, and the others will just do the single beat thing. it was hectic, as u have to count, listen, march and also play at the same time. i wonder how much time these guys in the video spent to perfect this.
anyway.... the drumline consists of snares, tenors, bass, cymbals and pits/ensemble. i belong to the snare. and all of us are girls. :) GIRL POWER!
basses gives the pumping beat to the music, tenors fill up the running melodic rhythms in the middle, snares provide the basic rolls, rhthymics, volume, gimmicks.. well more onto rhythms and gimmicks. the pits/ensemble will then give the melody. cymbals, as usual gives the ambience of the music.
and looking back on how the drums play, lots of memoirs came back. me and my partner used to tick the nonsensical people who wanna make our lifes diff. tears shed, saliva spat, sweat pooled. all worth it.. DRUMLINE RULES! i wanna talk abt my partner, weifong. k. i USED to hate him. but now i love him to bits. lol coz of the friendship, and partnership that we have in the four years in band. we found alot of similarities between ourselves, and made ourselves a better team. so in the percussion section, he will be the devil, while im the angel. *ahem* yeapps. he will be the one scolding, while i will be at the back scene consoling those who is unable to take the push.
jieying-weifong partners forever!
ok this might sound abit errrrr.... eewk. but partners forever mean the partner.. well ya know. that partner. but not that kind of partner lo.. like those yea....
look back and SMILE.
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Monday, August 28, 2006
11:20 PM
realised that i am indeed afraid of falling. i say no to chances, because im scared that it will run away from me one day. right now, im wondering if u will..
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Sunday, August 27, 2006
9:45 PM
suddenly, have a temptation to shop. and i havent got my pay yet. plus, i have to take away some amount to ...
so lets say. i earn 500, 100 to mum. 100 to dad 50 to each of my grandparents. 50 to my bro. 400 gone.
NONO.
again. i earn 500 100 to mum, 100 to dad, 20 to bro, 20 to each of my grandparents. 280 gone. yea.. looks nicer. plus some gifts, and treats around my relatives. another 100 gone. hmph. left 120.
forget about shopping.. how the hell am i gonna buy blades?
neh mind la. still got so much time in the world for me to work and earn money, slowly save k? lala.
jieying, put shopping and buying of blades out of ur mind. from jy.
:( k. i dropped the idea of buying things. guys, dun tempt me.
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12:37 AM
she looks simple, but is dense inside. she thinks more than she can, with that size of the brain. she has a memory of automatic-deletion. and she is so messed up in her life.
right now, she just feel like lying on a CLEAN patch of green grass, and get absorbed by the clouds.
------------------------------- anyway. family is the best-est people on earth. they nv leave u, and forgive whatever mistakes that u have made. yeapps. i was so fucking tired today. and was overly excited, when i saw my bro's msg "we will be coming to fetch u, what time will u be off?" YAY.. i love u papa. :)
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Saturday, August 26, 2006
12:17 AM
AS IF. my blister on my foot, is starting to squeeze to a flat blood thingy soon. my head is spinning with all the nonsense. my stress is overloading, adding on, my period is delayed. so please.. spare me.
and i realised i DID NOT gave myself an off-day to rest from the hectic schedule. smart la. now i have to work everyday till 3rd sept. jieying, damn smart. -pats-
when u have only a choice to make, from two.. and u have interests in both, as they are of different character and people. one physically, another emotionally. which will u choose?
i have paused both, coz i realised i cant come to a deicision. maybe i will come to one, when i have the time, patience and spirit to think about it.
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Friday, August 25, 2006
12:31 AM
trust builts from the heart. once the trust is broken, u can try to mend it back... but, if its smashed, it will take a long time to heal the emotional wound.
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
9:04 AM
listened to my cousin's blog's song. and felt that its a good inspiration to start on sketchin my butterfly. well i did. drew around 8. got a great looking one. but the coloring is still a bit sucky. guess, a little bit more of practicing will allow the picture to flutter out.
------------------------------ everything needs time. and it takes time to heal the blisters on my feet. and im gonna walk on them later for work. wonder how it will turn out.. haha.
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
10:38 PM
i imagined myself, without the sense of sight. my point of view of this world will then be based by the sounds and my touch.
will it be a more beautiful world without ur sight, or with them? sometimes, i just wish i didnt see something that i saw. sometimes, i took things for granted, and want to see more.
whenever i close my eyes, i start to wonder how many beautiful things i have seen today. and on my list will always be ur smile, and ur sexy eyes.. even though i dun see u everyday. but u will always be on my mind.
therefore, i cant live without my sight. i want to see u.
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
11:22 PM
me and alicia. what can i say? a picture speaks a thousand words. i want to have an affair with u. kiss me baby. HAHA
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8:49 AM
i have no solution.
i guess we started out wrongly, should we even continue?
received ur msg. and finally woke up around 3 to read. i cried till i go to slp again.
i guess, being a good girl is not simple afterall. neither being a complicated girl is. but being complicated has the right to ignore, being simple and good dont. yea. wtf.
reminder: those who are reading my blog, and are getting pissed at how i am acting, just click on the X at the top right hand corner, thank you. AND i need no comments from u.
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Monday, August 21, 2006
10:09 PM
after the message i sent u. i find myself contradicting. i said i love u. but i told u at the same time i wanna find the meaning back. so what am i exactly saying? u said u understand. hmph.
so how exactly is my love defined as? i think just a bit more than friendship, for now.
i like what we are having now. enjoying each other's presence. :) i know u enjoy me being with u too.
i will be there when u need me; bubble tea rocks! heez..
and bro, i love u. dont show me the sad face, when i give u something imperfect. and which i tried to get it for u. can u pls grow up? damn. emo-child.
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Sunday, August 20, 2006
9:00 PM
what i thought is true, is false. what i hear is music, is noise. what i feel is impossible, is possible. what i see is correct, but all so wrong. what i smell is flowers, but turned out to be dump.
i am just lying to myself. i agree, in something that i read online, [We build walls around our hearts to protect us from anyone on the outside getting in to hurt us. But that same wall which keeps people out, keeps us stuck inside. The result? Loneliness sets in and true intimacy and love become impossible. ]
i have been so blinded by intimacy, seeking attention and all. its time to put it to a stop, and take time and search for my true love.
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
11:22 PM
why am i feeling like this? for a moment, i felt so small and tiny. how am i able to comfort u? with my limitations, i cant do much. i just want to be there for u when u need me. haa. i think im falling in love.
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10:09 PM
time passed. and i wondered again. what have i learnt in this new sem?
lots of things, matured alot. learning to be an independent person. however, studies dun seem to be my type. i hate to read. i dun love books, but they love to stare at me.
watched a show today. and thought about some random stuffs. what am i handling right now in my life? -family, studies, friends, mischief.
in a week or so, work will be making its way. and studies will be increasing. i wanna try to continue to study and try even harder. and if i still am not able to excel, i guess i need to think of another plan.
family and friends made up love in my life. after since the most recent break up, i realised i need to learn to be independent, and to control my emotions, not them controlling me.
after years and years and tons and tons of relationships. i realised that a bgr is not a necessity in my age now. i always end up at the same spot after walking a long distance. no starting, no ending.
---------------------------------- but i have to say. love occupies 85% of my emotional state. i am a VERY EMO person. can try asking my sec sch mates. and they will tell u i cry over the smallest stuffs.
i am not a talented person. and sometimes, i wasnt able to understand my emotions. as in. i have difficulty understanding myself. or mayb im abit retarded. coz i always find the root of the problem, days or weeks later. and i cry to myself most of the time, when i want to speak, but couldnt speak.
mum told me before i love to stone. and i love to keep quiet when people ask me questions. i nv like to talk. nv like to explain. if not i will start to tear, which i dun understand why.
mayb god created me this way. to love someone quietly, and to enjoy loving him.
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Friday, August 18, 2006
11:41 PM
no more tests. slack!
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
11:54 PM
fined $20 for moving flower pots into the lift. and got embarassed in front of the band, as the Capt Yusri said "everybody, please play in time before the timpani player falls asleep."
tml's ut for microbiology. got 2 Ds and a B. pls. give me a better grade can?
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
10:22 PM
i dunno. something is sticking into my brain. argh. literally of coz.
what the hell is bothering me? i hate this feeling.
a sudden thought of just stop waiting, and cont with my life. should i?
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9:58 PM
hmm. got the letter from guru. if ya cant see properly then click it. i think it will enlarge. :) bad day, hmm. dun really love today. i want my holidays.
checked my mail and realised that the class chalet is right before the band chalet. and it will be like 11-13 (class chalet) 13-15 (band chalet) yeapps. and i think i can meet them over there. it will be such a conincidence if its the same block. wahaha.
my bro liked the smiley that i got for a dollar. so i tried my luck again. and i got another 2 pink ones. my bro was quite sad when i showed him. hmph. well, darling. im sad too. will buy u cheese sausage then. :)
band prac tml. and ut on fri. so tiring sia.
and i am feeling so depressed sudd. mood swings? perhaps.
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
10:39 PM
okay.. had a session with the guru. this is his photo. and below is one of the photos that were taken from the camera. i was just outside the lift. and with 3 other brave ppl. so guru said he will be having a meeting with his committee, and deicide if we should have verbal warning/ written warning/ fine..
----------------------------- was on the way to meet izzy. it was a damn squeezy train. carrying my stupid laptop, plus water bottle, plus phone. my hands were real busy, so didnt manage to hold the pole. SUDDENLY. the train stopped. and i was flying all the way to the back of the train.
ok la. i was trying to balance myself, till i couldnt, and fall, into a guy's arm. he held onto me damn tightly and say "be careful" nice voice, he has. i was apologising for falling onto him, and halfway thanking him for holding onto me.
and everybody in the train stared. coz after the train jerked, and like it stopped jerking for quite some time, he was still holding onto me. and like. hmm. ARGH.. PERVERT! MOLEST!
k.. -chill- i dunno. he alighted at the next two stops.
pls. god, dun let it happen again k? but if it does, please send a more handsome guy who is single. thank u!
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Monday, August 14, 2006
11:04 PM
yuheng is such a hmm.. errr.. punctual man. he loves to read my posts straight away i post it. and i admire such enthusiam. yeapps.
thank u!
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10:54 PM
its kinda stupid. just last week, tricia thought of something stupid. moving flower pots and a dustbin into the lift. so my whole class was so on. most of us went to play that prank.
so today, the security guards took some pieces of paper consisting our faces through the camera. and well, out of 4 screenshots, i was in all of them. smart. coz i was the one pressing the lift. yeapps. still dunno what the consequences are. but we are not remorseful at all.
second offence in sch.. one smoking, two moving flowerpots. hmmx. no point running away. its part of my teenage life! yay.
-------------------------- guess im fading soon. how am i gonna pick myself up, when u just run away. oh wells. love sucks.
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Sunday, August 13, 2006
1:00 PM
hee.. got my pathetic $20 pay. it only pays $3.50 per hour.
passed by the bookshop on my way home, noticed the $1 machine thing. and thought i could get a pink doll out of it. and here it is. im so lucky! some ppl might say "hey ur pay not bad leh." well. it sure is, if u compare the labour with the pay. but what do i gain at the end of the day? absolute nuthin. i am either there studying child's behaviour or reading my own book. yea. and an additional 3.50
well. u see. i dun really like to sit there and learn nuthin la. its quite pointless. but my parents dun agree. they say "she was ur teacher b4, since she asks u for help, then u help lo."
argh. fine.
hols are coming. wanna work. hopefully able to find a job at amk, or around amk, for easier access. :) i wanna save money to buy roller-blades.
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Saturday, August 12, 2006
9:41 PM
now i understand the term, health is wealth. since young, didnt get a good immune system, plus have a weak body. so any bacterial nowadays get into me will confirm get on me.
so was looking at probiotics, and realised that part of my daily diet affect real much on my health as well. and this is an interesting fact. the top 10 smart foods. (from nutra-smart) 1. fruits -low in fat, high in vitamins and fibre -contains phytochemicals to help fight cancer and heart disease -red and orange fruits are the recommended ones.
2.vegetables -defend against cacer and cardiovascular disease -healthier choices are dark green leafy veg, orange and red veg, and allum such as galic and onion.
3. soy and other legumes -excellent source of vitamins, minerals and fibre and NON-ANIMAL PROTEIN. -protect against heart disease and certain cancers as well!
4. whole grains -low G.I. defend against obesity and type2 diabetes. -rich in soluble and non-soluble fibre, defending against heart disease and cancers of the digestive tract. -rich in minerals and B vitamins.
5. fish -excellent source of protein, minerals such as selenium and vitamin D. -contain the omega-3 faty acids. -EPA and DHA to lower triglycerides and protect against heart attacks and ischemic stroke -protect against cognitive decline and improve IQ. :)
6. nuts -rich in selenium and vitamin E. -walnuts and almonds are known to decrease LDL "bad" cholesterol levels and protect against heart disease.
7. olive oil -reduce risk of heat disease and perhaps breast cancer. -rich in 'good fats' -extra V oil contains potent antioxidants and vitamin E.
8. yoghurt -A PROBIOTIC!
9. green tea -protect against a wide variety of cancers -lower cholesterol level
10. red wine! -drink 1-2 glasses per day lower the rate of heart disease. -can prevent atherosclerosis
yeapps. thats it. supplements do not help. consistent and balanced diets will give u a healthy life. and remember to smile. HAHAHA. :)
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Friday, August 11, 2006
10:13 PM
i have slacked alot. due to the results that aint giving me any confidence. well. i really did study. so whats the problem?
i dun even care to figure out. im just so tired from it. rp gives us problems everyday. and we have our own problems to handle. so much probs at a go. just so stressed out. so feel like slacking, and not do anything relating to studies.
furthermore, i have evern slackier friends than me in my class getting better grades than me. argh. life sucks. ya know what? all my ut grades ar.. i got all the different alphabets available in the grading system. hate school. HATE SCHOOL.
argh.. rp should do something abt gaining interest in learning through the pbl system. fuck it.
-------------------------------- and im thinking of picking up rollerblading from basic again. i wanna do grinding in parks! wahaha.. when will that dream ever come true? i cant even jump that high! lol.
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9:33 AM
who believe in dreams? i was happy that i got woke up by my mum. had a terrible nightmare. so called unhappy dream as well.
it was just so real that my mum had to really shake me to wake me up. almost cried when i saw my mum. coz i dreamt of the ending part before. and it still stays clear in my mind.
the design of the mansion. the backyard. the stairs. everything.
i dun like to see people die. if they have to, i wont allow. coz i dun believe in a miserable ending in life.
i rem kneeling down, hugging ur knees, crying to u, to nv let me go. dun ever leave me, coz i need ur love.
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Wednesday, August 09, 2006
9:22 PM
this is the only pic i can upload. i dunno why. i thought blogger will be down tml at 4. but it seems that its already halfway down right now.
morning got nagged by my mum again. noon played bluff and uno with my family. and in the evening...
went to east coast park with alot of ppl. with my grandparents from paternal side as well. rode bicycle for 3/2 hr. and 15 mins of skooter. and cut my toe while i was trying to hold on to my bro. the cut was happily flapping its half-torn skin with blood oozing out. nice view. :] then i push the skin back in its place. hurts.. but it will be alright.. :]
had delicious dinner. hee. yay. tml is band prac. yuheng, u owe me a.. lollipop. thank u!
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
9:28 PM
the problem with her. cant take it! keep nagging, complaining about stuffs NON STOP. since she step into the house.
everthing that she question needs an ANSWER. everything that she does. needs a reason. and it applies the same for us.
i mean. i really cannot take it. why do u need a reason for everything. just stop ur blabla-ring and do ur things. nobody in the house can stand it. now, im copying actions from my dad. JUST IGNORE.
i know its bad. but sometimes when we warned u about it. u dun seem to take our advice either. no point, mum. learn to reason out the stuffs by urself than speaking them aloud. its irritating.
i hope i dun have that blabla-ring chromosome in my dna. eewk.
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8:52 PM
i bet everyone slacked today.
gave myself a leave for a day. put my lappie in the cupboard. and went to macs for breakfast while dad was bathing, and after mum went off for work. im so naughty la.. but who cares.. i will need a lot of saliva to explain to them for not wanting to appear in sch just for a day. so since im not interested in convincing them.. so had to stick to plan B. lol.
was actually planning to go at 815. was flipping through the pages of readers' digest, when saw kq came in. k like.. -stunned- dun ask me if i feel happy. or i feel sad. if anyone interested to know abt kq. feel free to ask me. i will ans u in 2 sentences. :)
i am such a good girl. to have my medication on time. hee. coz the medication cost too much la. bo bian. if not it will be down the bin. hmph. see. TOLD YA ITS UTI. blehx..
chat with kq till around 10.. ? then went home. on my laptop. chatted with yuheng for like damn long. non-stop like i seriously dun understand. we actually have SO MUCH to talk abt. like everyday, we will spend SO MUCH time talking to each other. well. mayb its a new friend. :) yeapps. and im introducing him to BLEACH. woohoo. bleach rox!
so after chatting with him for like SO MUCH. he decided to do his ppt. and i went for my nap. bro came home, started telling me his story while i was half asleep. and he gave up on continuing coz i gave no response. -shrugs-
woke up around 5. watched cartoon. and grandma called me if i feel like goin over to eat fried rice, as she has too much leftovers. initially, i said no. coz NO FRIED RICE in my list of diet this whole month. so i thought abt how long i have not spend time with her and said.. ok. im eating fried rice. :P
had our conversation. i love my grandma. (maternal side)
she told me that when i was young, she used to sing this song in hainanese. k i dun understand, except the word market. then i giggled so much while lying on her shoulder, and she sudd ask me. u understand anot? admitted, and the song means..
she will take care of me when im young. teach me good manners. how to be a good girl, with good character. then when grow older, she will bring me to the market, and SELL ME. and after weeks and weeks, still, nobody wants to buy me. (i dunno why.) but she say nobody will buy me. :(
the beginning part is touching. but the selling thing makes no sense. the nobody buying me makes even more NO sense. whatever~ i enjoy the time spent with her.
-------------------------------------------------- i cant imagine my life without so many of u. small pieces of time, being placed together. though its sad to see that its all over. but i treasure it. i really do. ------------------------------------------
jy, u should slp ultra early today. and start to revise on ur chem tml morn. u have to STUDY and LOVE chem. and magic ur chem from an E to at least a B. good luck. regards, jy.
like so pathetic can? E.. where the fuck did it come from?
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Monday, August 07, 2006
11:13 PM
alvin bought me breakfast. and he claimed that it was 'AI XIN ZAO CHAN.' ... and he forgot to take chopsticks. neh mind. ate half of the packet. was quite delicious, partly coz im hungry. fried stuffs somemore.. hmm
the whole class was having flu. during the ut, sniffs were heard every sec. like so NORM.
sudd the stupid facs sudd came in and say 'paper ut hor' when everybody was rushing on the online ut. so most of us say 'eh. no pen leh'
so they gave uss.. and i got a FREE PEN. lol yeaps. they sponsor us. neh mind la.. they have to pay a bit of price for scaring us.
so aizat acc me on the train. and met izzy to see doc. i am seriously suffering from uti (urinary tract infection) and it was damn serious. imagine when u find 3+ of blood in ur urine. and the bacteria count AND THE WHITE BLOOD CELL COUNT. AND AND THE PROTEIN. AND AND AND THE KETONES. think it needs some real diet to clear off this thing. hmph.
yeaps yeaps. and yuheng just help me to complete my RJ. hehe. thank u so much, guys.. for caring and concering for me. love ya all. (not missing out alicia. muacks) p.s u owe me a kiss. I DUN CARE.
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
10:26 PM
so sick. the pain actually felt like menstural cramp. it really sucked. had it for the whole noon. wasnt able to move out of bed. plus i need to move to the toilet and drink loads of water, was real troublesome. izzy said might be due to infection. and i thought could be quite true. anyway. will see the doc tml. :) and AND. im having difficulty walking. the moment i walk, more painful. -prays-
------------------------------------------- i wanna share my fun in the morn today. i love watching how innocent kids are. esp this cute guy in my workplace. he is in p2 this year. he do not know how to do fractions. so went to my teacher for help. my teacher went on to explain that there are 12 chocs that he brought to sch to share with his friends. and he is goin to share them with 12 friends. and the question now my teacher prompt was "how many choc will one friend get?" a normal person, a fast thinker, will ans "ONE"
i love his way of thinking, really. coz despite up to 3 ppl around him showed him finger signs of ONE. he kept thinking. i guess. he was thinking, since he needs to share the chocs among 12 ppl, there will be 13 parts. hence, it will be v hard to divide it equally.
lmao. he is really cute. i wanna go forward and pinch his cheeks. ---------------------------------------------- GENETICS UT! im ready! haa. B+ and above! GOGOGOGO! yeah!!!
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
11:34 PM
it feels like im having menstrual cramps.
pain pain.. :(
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Friday, August 04, 2006
9:19 PM
i have got loads to share. -tattoo -my sin :)
tattoo talked to jennifer two days back abt getting a tattoo. she said "ORH REALLY? i also want a butterfly on my back!"
-stunned- its like everybody is getting a butterfly.. and it will be on the back. :( but i still love the butterfly in my mind. will still draw up in the hols and show.. but meanwhile.. what can i put to cover that ugly scar? some urban tribe sign? eewk.. im NOT a wahtever u name those ppl... and a guy suggest i put mickey mouse. and to think of it.. my ex's- bestest friend had a lion face tattoo on his arm. (which is meant to be cool.. something fierce looking on the arm..) he was so skinnyy.. till he went to army and started to train on his muscles.. now.. his lion does not look fierce.. it is starting to smile. hilarious!
k now.. sin im having urinary tract infection. confirm + guarantee stamp lo.. it hurts while i try to pee. let me tell u abt my horrible day.. i just love to complain. :)
i was having headaches when i woke up this morning. i practically dragged myself to sch, without meeting alvin.. if not he will be asking me too many questions.. or mayb nagging at why i didnt look after my health. basically, i hate ppl who nag, so didnt meet him. was in the class for 15 mins, then feel like vomiting. vision blurred. hungry. cant move much. so dear jennifer bought me bread. and i drank 2 bottles of green tea in 2 hours. for lunch, jennifer bought me another three pieces of bread. at that time, i was shivering madly in class. feel like slping, giddy, vomitting, hot and cold.
i went to pee hell lots of times. but it still hurts.. its the lower-part-of-the-abdomen that hurts. sorry if this sounds disgusting. but.. i really really hope i didnt see like red red thing flowing with my pee. i think i did, but oh my.. it really is like.. haiz.
im dying. i think my kidneys cant take it anymore. or mayb this week i have been taking too little fluids, that stress them out. im so sorry. i dun mean it. i have learnt my lesson. please be well again. and im really REALLY quitting smoking.
health problems are really freaking me out. mayb sinning once in a while is okay..(like eating fried, err.. drink sweet stuffs, etc) but i love my kidneys. please. PLEASE. get well soon.
---------------------------------- i wanna apologise to people(some only) who ask me if i need any help from them, and i end up throwin a temper. i know that u care about me. but sometimes, ur sentences are so annoying. and u kept asking non-stop that really pissed me off. in fact, u DO NOT have to ask "are u okay?" like every 2 fucking hours right? argh... stupid guys.
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
10:29 PM
in a total bad mood today. though spawnie bought me a bar of dark choc. hmph.
im not goin to say what it is exactly.. got caught for something illegal doing in sch. stupid security guards.
so tired of school. can i like just stay at home and rot? and to hell with biochem.
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
10:33 PM
went touring with izzy today. fun. but tiring. studied. but feel like slping.
im thinking of having a tattoo. on my back. a bit above the butt there.. but does that make me look lian? i think will lei.. BUT im not putting those big big ones. i wanna design my own butterfly. coz i have a meaning to it. :) furthermore, i wanna cover the scar that i had. i really dunno how it appeared.. i have totally forgotten if there was a mosq bite b4.. till months b4, my mum told me about it. so thinking of having a tattoo to cover the ugliness.
will draw it in my hols. and post it up for ur comments. :)
and yeaps. forgetting abt my title.. time really flies. i just want to have more time with u. will that be possible?
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006
8:22 PM
went to a weird place ytd. and got myself countless of mosquito bites. but it was quite retarded la.. i only feel the itchiness like a day after i got the bites. at that time when i was at the place, only 3 spots itch. but today.. was like.. the itch spread to every corner of my fat.. cheez..
told mum in the mornin that i dun feel like goin to sch, and got scolded instead.
today's problem nearly cracked my brain. i think only 3 ppl understand the prob today-shawn, tigor and ah pek(ys). idiotic freaks. how to understand the whole complete nucleotide synthesis in just less than 5 hours?
and my team was like the slackiest in the class. i was the one presenting the slides on nucleotide synthesis, but didnt manage to 'smoke' through.. like so OBVIOUS. that i dun understand. i finished reading on my slide, but benny stil dun want to click on to continue with the ppt, he wanted me to ELABORATE MORE.. sad.. dun think i can make it for UT4.. -prays-
------------------------------------------ i hate life. i really wonder why am i living on earth for. what do i get at the end of the day? hmm..
i think.. i will just leave a memoir in every person that i have met in my life. and right now, im thinking of clearing my sins.. and be a better man... ok.. i think not.. i enjoy having thrills.
does one learn when he meets an obstacle? does one regret when he has no other road to choose? does one forget when he do not find a point to rem? does one change just to gain popularity?
i think i should stick to my plan f. put relationship to a later stage, since im not intending to have kids. :) nuthin is in a hurry, except biochem. :(
me and alicia.
bad day,
and below is one of the photos that were taken from the camera.
so guru said he will be having a meeting with his committee,
some ppl might say "hey ur pay not bad leh."