11:46 PM
double sides to a story.there are always two sides to a particular story.
simply meaning dun just look or take a person's view and make that a conclusion.
things can get real nasty if the emotions play around with your thoughts.
and using the same thing (love).
once, i was being honest and confident about the relationship.
i succeeded in sculpting a better character out of him.
and then i told him "i love you everyday."
and i pointed out at things that he may have missed out in life.
teach on how to pause and admire small details in life at times.
somehow, that little moment when we paused.
we were told about how beautiful the scenary of another island could be.
no stranger the speaker was. & thoughts of running free came to our mind.
the relationship with my lover stood still.
we know what we should do to maintain.
yet both of us are doubting our own abilities in handling the situation.
saying "i love you" isnt simple.
but from another point of view,
solving hardcore problems can be fun and easy-to-do.
but are we ready?
or perhaps... am i ready?
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11:49 PM
how i wish when our love is being taken by the other person,
the two hearts just get into a small wooden box to be locked and kept aside.
so that no other influences will happen. and that this love-tale will last forever.
why am i having such low understanding of myself and my dear?
i believe he loves me lots.
ok. sally, what's love?
seems like everybody is using that word so frequently...
i just feel like turning lesbian. (screams to alicia)
ROAAARS.
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10:22 PM
how i wish i have so much more confidence in myself.
it seemed like i have been getting a lot more unnecessary attention these few days.
are more people getting less loved these few days that's why they search for new ones?
or are the options better out there? or do they seemed to be better out there?
that's the thing with
homo sapiens. we go with feelings too much.
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9:40 PM
family lunch celebrating my dad's birthday.
i am glad that both of my parents are putting in effort to maintain their health and balance their lifestyle.
love my family lots~ weeeee~
doesnt it look cute? a guy kissing a guy.. LOL.
so after their performance, then cam whore.
good entertainment value. sound was great.
a little bit more amendments and ready to do an album!
above : me and green and his friend.
below: me and anders. anders is super tall, so i stood on a chair.
and quayboo.
all the other photos got very heavy eyebags.. so i would prefer not putting them up.
sorrrrrrry....
from left (ratish, anders, green, yuda, quayboo - vocalist, bassist, lead guitarist, rhythm guitarist, drummer)
okay. random webcamming.
dear took it with the intent of being "natural"
yeah. but i looked damn prepared for it.
lol..
my cute little boy. havent seen him for two days.. roarss.
miss him.
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1:13 PM
i am still day dreaming.
yesterday's gig was superb.
so much better than the first one.
partly cause they were on a raised platform? sound engineer better than prev?
woots~
but steam boat later is disgusting.
the mild spicy soup made everyone choke on it.
luckily i didnt eat. i kia si. (scared die)
oh wells. so nothin extraordinary happening in my life.
just working on the sales, and going to have my first guitar lesson from dear on weddy.
can't wait.
so just working on the aims. that's all.
nothin much.
boring.
like paul.
boring life.
*sighs*
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12:33 AM
i opened up facebook.
looked at alicia's photos.
and my com hang.
wah lao. super traumatised lo my com!
tsk tsk. hang for 10 mins somemore.
i can feed silver and get a drink.
tsk tsk.
she's a dugong.
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8:50 PM
suddenly the thought of another person came to my mind.
she is a person whom i admire more than my own mum.
because she is able to control her emotions and thoughts well.
and i wonder if she did ask how i am doing.
or if what i am doing.
or if i am doing well in my job.
and i will know the answers from him "i dun know."
perhaps hidden meaning will be "dun bother to ask. she has someone else already."
alright. i should stop having endless thoughts...
*
work is alright.
the workload is flooding in.
boss is super kind.
maybe he is a guy.. that's why.
previous doctor also like that. lol.
guys say all the same thing "aiyoh, ni kan jiu shi you ni zai ke yi shen chun."
means got you then can survive.
haiz. all guys know how to smoke. knn.
*
love life is okay.
went to the airport to be tourguide ytd.
*
you know what?
suddenly SUDDENLY i feel like splurging money.
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9:18 PM
everytime i looked at her photos, or when someone post about some event showing her photo..
my feelings just dropped. then there will be a few seconds of flashback of what we have been through.
roars. i dun understand that from the moment we graduate, not a single sms or tag was replied.
for a moment, i take her as someone i treasure, from the hardships we have been through.
and now...
my dear sophia.. where are you?
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11:37 PM
the same place, the same case.
the same warmth, the same clothes.
the same love.
when we look away, it's a moment of shyness.
when we look in, it's a moment of admiration.
when we stay away, we work.
when we stay together, we embrace.
how can i explain the amount of respect you have shown to me?
i love you dear. thank you for loving my body too.
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11:13 AM
like this doctor who commented on life,
"you do not have to put in your hundred percent and all in your job, because all in all most of the money doesnt go to you. just put in 70-80 percent will be good enough. use the leftover to focus on other parts in life, such as social circles, interests, etc. there is so much more to life. do not overstress yourself. "
&
"the person who loves you the most is not the one who says -iloveyou- everyday. but if he/she shows up when you are feeling sick(mentally or physically) to take care of you, then he/she is the one who truly loves you. Not just ask on how you are doing, but step into your life and improve your condition."
oh wells. i am not believing his words 100%, but they make sense.
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10:21 AM
i am being so myself when having periods.
i love to dress in weird colours.
and got myself miss the bus and late to work for 10 mins (which dun make any diff since i officially start work when my boss step in, which is probably 1pm).
and on my way up the escalator, people were wondering why i did.
cause i was going the wrong direction. it was coming down.
dumbdumb
:X
did mocha drink for myself in office and it was super GAO.
ok *taps pen on table* gonna read my own stuffs.
and did i mention.. there are XXX magazines found in the cupboard of my desk.
:O
& im missing him lots.
i want to post his photo but i cant transfer to com...
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11:21 PM
ok. im super tired.
i cant think of words to describe your love to me.
hehe. super 1 min.
muacks.
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1:06 AM
dear sally,
do tell me what are the reasonable paths when i am in a dilemma.
do tell me what to avoid doing, and what to overlook when i become too sensitive and emotional.
do let me know about not having any limits in giving people who deserve happiness and security.
now you have already let me know about how silent the world is,
i would like to know what the other world sounds.
im thankful that you stood by me to help me remove my earphones today.
i listened and i talk.
love you sally.
jy.
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11:00 PM
got my haircut!
just saw that my new workplace will be so near to so many uneasy places.
if im single, i would have wanted to ask for free rides, lunch companions (notice the plural)
whatever. i want to make relationship with ren right.
since he makes the effort to inform me about how much he loves me before i slp every night.
i shall then make the effort to take bus on my own.
ok. enough cam whoring.
sometimes i look at the photos and think to myself.
"haiz. why do i look so pretty in photos?"
LOL.
im such an ass.
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12:24 AM
i just realised how much i have missed my poly friends, band friends, fyp mate, dentist, and former deyi percussion people.
it is time to meet up some of them. and TRY to contact those MIA.
ok. i love ren. nite!
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doesnt it look cute? a guy kissing a guy.. LOL.
so after their performance, then cam whore.
above : me and green and his friend.
and quayboo.
all the other photos got very heavy eyebags.. so i would prefer not putting them up.
got my haircut!