Thursday, November 30, 2006

11:55 PM

i thought i was able to survive till 1..
argh.
-vision blurs-

time to slp!

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Wednesday, November 29, 2006

9:07 PM

should i be happy or sad?

i actually told my mum about my last sem's class partying at momo this fri night.
the whole week, or from the previous week, they have been talking abt it.
setting me wondering if i should just gave up this whole idea, or just ask my parents, though i know its like 90% NO.

when i told my mum abt the thing, she did not really react.
she was just "oh.. huh.."
and then that very night, i checked my results and she happened to be standing next to me.
so yea. improved. and then i grabbed my chance and asked her again.
then she said "go ask ur dad"
so wee~ increased percentage of being able to go.

so asked my dad.
asked me what time will i return home.
and i said 2/3 am?
coz thats around the time ppl go home and slp.
then he said 11pm.
told him "but they are meeting at 10pm."
replied, "they are the ones who are meeting late"

heart sank.
really dun understand why is it always like that.
always making things diff for me.

allowed to go but return an hour later?
whats the point of allowing then?
does he even want me to enjoy?
or is he just granting the permission for the sake of goin out?

im crying now, not because i decided not to go clubbing.

if he said no. and reasoned out that im still young.
i will understand.

BUT allowing me to go, and returning home an hour later is basically just like-
buying a dream toy for a kid, but not letting him play with it.

i seriously dun understand how he thinks.

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1:09 PM

my cousin.
me and emu hacked that same vending machine again.
succeeded! suceeded? hmph. how to spell ar.
lol.
yay.
from now on, we can just need to pay 55 cents for one damn coke bottle!
wee~

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darling bought me a book for our three month happy thingy.
[master your mind design your destiny-adam khoo ]
read the first few pages, and well..
wasnt really interested.
all they say was about success.
stories from successful people.

so.... is making money, having millions of dollars in ur pocket or being recognised in the world considered successful?

sherline asked me ytd, "you want to put tattoo anot?"
replied, "well, maybe when i become successful.."
sherline, "so what is becoming successful to you?"
me, -blanks- errr

exactly.
i do not know what is considered successful to me.
of coz not making lots of money and making myself recognised in the country or whatever.
bascially, coz i dun want to be.
because if i have to be 'that successful', i have to give up my time, my family, my friends, my slacking self. everything.
which i dun think im prepared. or i cannot give in to.

but in that book, there are quite a few stratgies which i can use it to apply for my studies.
in which.. my next goal will be scoring an A for any of my test.
hehe.

and then slowly, my following goal will be earning trust from my family.
so on and forth.
thats my view of being successful now.
maybe coz i am not ready to give in my life and time to be 'that successful'.
but its alright.













take baby steps, jieying
:]
thank you darling.






well.. just wasting space. so that the damn video can go below the cbox.

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Sunday, November 26, 2006

8:34 PM

PMS SURVIVAL TIPS

thanks to science!

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12:27 PM

ytd can be a good day if it somehow ended properly.
some actually-supposed-not-to-be-happening-stuffs happened.
and wells. bear with it for 4 damn hours. (rolling, tearing. uh.)
cut out my slping time.

argh. and i have lots to revise on.
cell culture and rDNA test.
urgh.

i think im so sick.
sick, in the sense sick.
and sick of school.
sick of being sick.
sick of doing this.
sick of wanting watever-that-is-unwanted.
headache and feeling dizzy at the same time.
plus, eyes closing..

urgh.
one more week to whatever.

--------------------
k. i wanna be sensible for a min.
i realised that money is really impt afterall.
ytd shopped with alicia and fish.
and wells, spent lots.
so.. basically.. without money, i wont get what i want.

but but.. so what if ya have lots of money?
big FUCK eh?
lolx.
oindoinvowdcmoidwi
djnoifnowimc
ojdncowdic

k. i think i should slp b4 proceed to studying.
damn.

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Saturday, November 25, 2006

11:05 AM

things -

-immuno ut3
maybe its good not to study so much, coz u get to ans simply when u read the questions.
lala.. but lets wait for the results, yea?
must take note.. immuno ut3.. hehe

-stupid song
walked past agora after sch, and the replug performed on stage.
two guys sang 'truly madly deeply-savage garden'
so WRONG.
-hair stands-

-irritating jo
she threw my duck, the small sized on top of the projector.
then when i ask her to get it down for me, she 'huh' in a slpy way....
-cries...-
had to plead tigor to help me get it down before ut starts..

someday.. her hair is gonna get snipped when she slps in class..
hehe.. right sherline?
lalalala.
joreen.. watchout HORRRR... its OUR TURN to bully u LE!

-fish
i took a photo of my fish today.
hehe..
so 'kawaii' la..
will post it tonight.. :]

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Thursday, November 23, 2006

11:19 PM

my rj question:
what can u do in life with what u have learnt in lesson today?

if only i learnt on how to cook.. maybe i can apply them to life easily.
but how can learning a process on mutating a nucleotide apply in my period of time now?
SEE I TOLD U.
studying in rp is stressful.

but i slacked.
yea.
:]

hohoho to my test tml.
im gonna flunk it man.
dieDIEDIE!

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Wednesday, November 22, 2006

10:36 PM

Q1: Given that jy is a human. prove that it is a girl and has mood swings. [5 marks]
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Ans:
jy= human
jy wore skirt today= girl
finally wore a skirt after a month of wearing jeans= moodswings occuring
therefore, jy= moodswings happening.

(proven, jieying has moodswings)
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[word limit:100, words typed:27]

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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

11:14 PM

u dun bother to even care less.
i guess i should just give up my anxiety for u.
because it has been draining out aimlessly for days.

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Monday, November 20, 2006

9:49 PM

shirk of responsibility?

sometimes gossips are good to hear, coz u get to learn from other ppl's mistakes.

1st gossip:
a guy gave her mother $500 per month for household 'fees'.
and when he goes on a holiday for two whole weeks,
he gave her mother $200, reason being coz he will not be at home.

2nd gossip:
while at home, a lady picked up any food, that she dropped on the floor.
however, she ignored what she dropped on the floor, coz she aint the one doing the cleaning up.

now, i give an example.

1st example:
i had to iron clothes when i was in secondary school.
well, mum says that everyone has to play a part in the family.
after graduating, i did not cont to help out in ironing.
coz there aint any of my stuffs in there.
out of 25 pieces, all 25 pieces are not mine.
so i stopped.

shirk of responsibility?

i put in excuses for myself not to play a part in housework,
and that my area of commitment is only within my own table, my bed, and wherever i step upon.
BUT, realised it.
and yea. picked up what i should do.

sometimes, mum got lazy and pushed some to me and bro.
we will complained about it..and accept it if its once or twice.

but if it is her turn to push her responsibility to us....................
it will be her fault!

oh man. i detest housework!
arghhh

conclusion:
dun stop doing what u are always doing coz of the reasons that u have in ur mind.
simple because,
reasons in ur mind = excuses.
and the most common excuse is, "sorry, i really cant spare my time for u."

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Sunday, November 19, 2006

8:41 PM

woots.

i wanna go shopping!!
hee.
so looking forward to outing with fishy and alicia.
they are the only people who i can really shop with, apart from joel.
haha.

so had already saved up quite a bit,
hope i wont overspend!

list of to do entertainment list.
-go vivo with sherline
-eat choc fondue with paul
-outing with besties

to get list
-as many tops as possible
-as many bottoms as possible
-drumsticks
-bags
-pumps!
-earpiece

want to get but unable to get list
-ipod
-a new phone (hopefully white/silver)
-new house
-pets/plants
-a living sally
-hp laptop!
-go chiong
-no panda eyes
-my own messy room
-lots of money
-bigger brains with quality!
muahahaha

i guess thats all for now.
if i have all of them, i would probably not take good care of my stuffs.
thats why they are still in the wishlist, coz im not good enough to handle it yet!

soon man... SOON.
i will be old enough to be responsible!

rolls on floor laughing..

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Saturday, November 18, 2006

11:57 PM

how can i put it aside when it keeps popping up in the head?

i try to view things from a diff side.
giving myself as many choices as possible.
but is that necessary?

oh man. i need a happy drug.
someone feed me chocolate.

[look over it. look over it. look over it. look over it. look over it]
dammit.

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Friday, November 17, 2006

9:48 PM

wasnt an effective day if u wanna look from the studies point of view.
but, was an enjoyable day from a slacker's point of view.
wahaha.

attended bob's concert from 8.00pm to 8.45pm
though his voice, looks and whatever is not good enough to become a real artist,
im TOTALLY INTO him.

wonder what makes him so high up in my list?

i think.. its love.
[bob=isaac]

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brother had a bad day.

i guess its some puberty thing.

my puberty period was quite alright,
just that i dunno how to differentiate who are the good and bad guys.
well, at that time, i always pulled a long black face when im at home, and i always yearn to go out with my friends.

hmph...... since i love to tease him so much,
i guess i should seriously stop.
coz, it aint a good feeling when u are being teased about ur appearance in ur puberty period.
because, these f-ing hormones floating around in ur body, tend to make u have mood swings,
swing from one end to the other.
narh.. haha.

its diff to control hormone expression, but it is easy to avoid it.
simply, just try to look over, and have a patient mind.
AND AND.. the world will be a better place to live in!!

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Thursday, November 16, 2006

11:23 PM

the HSBC tree top climb near macritchie reservoir.
took around 1 and a half hour to reach the top, with breaks..
but coming down was a disaster man!!
i was stairs-phobic, and couldnt walk down the stairs..
:P
today's band prac was fun,
though felt sick.. but emu cheered me up!
at the end of the prac, he suggested to hack the coke vending machine.
claimed that he learnt from youtube.
so i blurblur follow him and experiment out.
failed...
but neh mind, we are goin to try it again on tues.. but with HIS MONEY..
hahaha.
wasted 2.20 for two 100plus bottles..
im gonna get my free bottle on tues man.. dun care..

anyway..
practice makes perfect,
& i was able to play the bells today!
:]
HAHAHAHAHA.

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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

8:37 PM

im a lazy bum!!
argghhhhh.

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Tuesday, November 14, 2006

10:31 PM

things that i think i might have done it today.. but didnt

-call darling in the morning.
-work hard and read all my resources!
-healthy lifestyle
-face reality
-play music during band prac
-talk around 5 sentences to my mum

my team's was like urh. including me.. but AIYAH, some * put up acronyms that dun even know what it was. and i think that really pulled down our grades. hmph.. damn. i thought i could bluffed my way through to achieved an A.
band practice was 'great'. sight reading was really damn eewk. i was staring at the score, singing to myself the notes, but not hitting the bell. (was searching for the notes) and some ppl kept playing wrong key signatures in the score. so we created noise. yusri was really able to take it. i guess his migraine worsened upon hearing our untuned instruments plus wrong keys at the correct time.
reached home and said "hi", "i go and bathe", "ok" to mum. so pathetic man. i really dunno what else to say.. or maybe i couldnt spare my time with her coz i need to post this entry and do my rj AND watch prison break. im so f-ing selfish.

anyway, im already trying to overcome my laziness.
and i have already succeeded the first obstacle, that is to clear and clean my table.
though mum says that it didnt really change at all, and i merely just move the things on the left to the right and vice versa, i think it made a whole lot of difference!
it is MORE organized NOW.
yea :]

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Monday, November 13, 2006

10:24 PM

christmas is coming,
list of gifts will be coming up.
money will be floating away like whatever can be floated.

wee~
ut2 is finally over!
ut3 coming in a week's time.
sadded.
today's test really cannot make it.
i dun even know what i am answering in the question.
i think everyone's the same also.

andAND. lets go escape theme park!! arghhhh

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Sunday, November 12, 2006

9:33 PM

my mind's on a shopping spree, in a holiday mood and also craving for more sleep.

somehow i just cant myself from daydreaming.
hurr.
i was supposed to study for tml's mcb test.
coz i didnt turn up for the last lesson (gene expression), which i think most prob 2 out of 3 questions will be on ge.

and i drifted off to surfing on other blogs, reading boh liao stuffs, and playing zuma.
couldnt get my mind to study.. hurrrr.
but partly coz my interest for this mod is not there.
everytime DNA DNA DNA.
sianz.

i think i should plan my week well before i start on it.
my life's a mess with my f-ed up personality.
buay ta han.

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Saturday, November 11, 2006

10:25 PM

everytime we see each other, u give me this present.
i cannot feel or touch it.
but i am always asking more of it.

know what is it?
.
.
time being together.

i love u baby. :]

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Friday, November 10, 2006

10:53 PM

Thursday
-sch was as usual (boring dao...)
-tutored joel (hoped i helped him in his maths.)

oh.
that day's lesson was on rDNA.
it is interesting to participate in Scottz lessons.
teaching some moral values in between, using dna as an example of coz.
so we were on the topic of beginning and ending.
we are given a life, thats a beginning.
but then when we live, we wait for death, thats the end.

for friendships, when we see each other and interact, thats a beginning.
the friendship will last till either of us past away. thats the end.
although friendship has end, but memoirs will still be remained.

k. enough of writing what we all already know. hmph.

Friday
-ut-ed
-attend nyp's concert.

today's lesson was funny.
we were doing dilution factor and stuffs.
till now, i still cannot get it. really.
will post the question tml or u ppl to guess.

&
realised that playing music is not just following the score.
ok. i was always doing that.
i will learn like how nyp percussionists do.
even the guy playing the tambourine was so lively!! im so attracted to him for the whole performance!! haha
and i love the strings ensem.
violins will always be the coolest string instrument!

and im so tired.
i want to slp for 10 hours straight can?
hurrr..

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Wednesday, November 08, 2006

9:37 PM

i just love this triangle eyed guy below.
the way he
-knocks sense to me.
-speaks to me.
-hugs me.
-looks into my eyes.
-cheers me up when i start to think too much.
-is so man.
-and a lot more.. which will take more than 5 mins to list down..

LOL. k time to meet darling in dreamland street 5.
nitex.

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10:27 AM

i will have to hold my anxious thoughts till friday.
lots of programmes coming up..
plus cash will be flowing out faster, & more than expected.

ytd's test wasn't that great.
like what mai had done,
my answers were v brief as well.
didnt even put in keywords like classical complement system, or whatever pathway.
hurrr.

i just hope i can get a cell culture degree and *whoo~* work in some cell line lab.
sigh.

for ya info!!
rw's coming, and i will be attending his concert with Ajin this sat!
cheers!!

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Monday, November 06, 2006

9:05 PM

i hate tests.
hate studying.
hate school.
coz of the prev test's marks,
feel that i should just not study so much,
and maybe try to go in with what i already know.

and lets see what grade can i get...

:]

im learning not to bear grudges..

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Sunday, November 05, 2006

9:48 PM

list of random eff-ed qs.
01. is yourhair wet? no.
02. is your cell phone right besideyou? behind me..
03. do you miss someone? yea. almost everyone.
04. are you wearing gel: no.
05. are you wearingchapstick: no. of coz not...
06. are you cold: this is getting stupid..
07. are youtired: perhaps? maybe..
08. are you excited: no for the tests. yes for the concert.
09. areyou watching t.v: no. not interested.
10. are you wearing pajamas:no

PAST
01. recently done anything you regret:yes.
02. ever lied: yes. HAHAHa
03. ever stuck gum under adesk: no. but i sitck scotch tape b4.
04. ever kick someone: in the head. :)
05.ever trip over your own feet?: err. yea. and i had an operation. :[
06. evercried so hard you almost threw up: yea. while trying to talk to mum. it was diff. u should try.

TODAY
01. have you cursed: today, no.
02. have youyelled at someone: no.
03. have you gotten mad atsomeone: not really. was abit 'argh' when darling said he got wedding dinner to attend on friday.
04. have you cried: i dunno
05. haveyou called more than 3 people: yea. isaac, my mum and myself (misplace it)
06. have youim'd more than 3 people: yea. mai, yuheng, paul, alicia, some random ppl..

Q 01: isthere a person who is on your mind right now? yea.. isaac. just wondering.hmph.
Q 02: where is the last place you went?my grandma's house
Q 03: who is the last person youcalled? myself. :)
Q4: who do you like more,your mom or dad? neither. i love them.
Q 05: do you haveany siblings? yea. one pig
Q 06: do yousmile often? i think so..
Q 07: do you think thatsomeone is thinking about you right now? i hope.. haiz
Q 08: do you wish on stars? no.
Q09: when did you last cry? this morning.
Q10: do you like your handwriting? no.. they keep changing every few mins
Q 11:are you a friendly person? no.
Q12: who's bed did you sleep in last night? sally and a star.
Q 13: what color shirt are you wearing? red
Q 14: do you have any pets? a bobdog and a duck
Q 15: what is the color of your bedsheets? blue
Q 16: what were you doing at 9 lastnight? playing the keyboard
Q 18: i can't wait... for me to get an A for every test.
Q 19: is tom on your friends list? no. no such friend.
Q 20: look to your right. what'sthere? window and a fan.
Q 21: ever cried yourselfto sleep? most of the time.
Q 22: ever cried on yourfriend's shoulder? yea. my lesbian's.
Q 23: song thatmakes you cry? yea. when im feeling down.
Q 24: are younormally a happy person? i dunno.
Q 25: has anyone ever said 'i love you' to you? yea. meaning it is a very diff thing.
Q 26: isyour self-esteem extremely low? i think so.. is mine low?

if you are stuck on an island,
what will be the only 5 things that u will take along with u?

1. my family, friends and sally (its consider as one!!)
2. my green tea shampoo
3. clothes (i have to wear them right?)
4. a boat (so i can row it home)
5. a passport :]

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1:24 PM

suddenly dun have the mood to do what i should be doing.
its always like that, and it happens to every human.
for example, when school starts we will hope holidays come. but when holidays come, we hope we are studying in school. ironic.

so gave myself some wee~ hours to play with html codes.
haha.
just for my own interests :]

and i can even create links--]
wonderful thing
(can someone tell me how to create links..? i followed the tutorial but......)

tralalala.

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Saturday, November 04, 2006

7:58 PM

this is the new kitchen im working in.
an oven looking centrifuge.
an even bigger oven looking centrifuge on the left.
and a weighing scale.
i hearts this kitchen.today is a bad day for me.
have not been on track for these days.
hell to wishes, dreams and fantasies.
it's making me anticipate so much, that i have become so impatient.
and im so in debt. (for the band)

yea yea. die die.

partly im feeling down, coz my mum asked me abt pp every week.
another partly is because i spend my time thinking of you rather than be with you.
another partly is because my mum wants me to re-consider of being with you.
another partly is that my tests results suck, and i wont announce it again.
another partly is that i have hearing problems.
argh.

so half of the feeling down is about my mum's point of view.
another half is about being unconfident about myself.
why cant she take things slowly?

im not a superwoman, mum.

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Friday, November 03, 2006

10:17 PM

how i wish i can have my own room.
i will want to paint every inch of that room with white and butterflies at the sides of the wall.
i want a board where i can post my reminders, a bed, my keyboard, my own table, and my closet with a mirror at the side.
and maybe some corner with a box, so i can pile my unwanted things there.
:]
when can i ever have that dream room?
:[

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Thursday, November 02, 2006

10:31 PM

normal average people like me, do things according to the mood.
once the mood starts to swing, the rest of the day wont be good.

checked my ut grade for cell culture.
C+.
'we will read ur reasons then give you the marks' my ass man.

my team mate did not study for anything.
and i trust her words.
coz she is an honest man.
and AND she got an A.

*throws off laptop*
i dun want to study for my test also.
sia la. i really dun have the moood to study!!

dun let the emotions take over your mind, jieying.
go for it!

hurrrrrrr.

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