10:33 PM
im not well yet.
my stomach is acting farny with me.
:(
i want to be well before i go to Taiwan....
oh. btw. i have a maid aka slave.
lol!!
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10:36 PM
finally, i have taken a break on a very lousy excuse.
to fall sick after eating waffle from school's stall..
and i manage to slp more than 12 hours for today.
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im happy, coz my family + bf showed me lots of love.
<3
ok.. then tml will be a brand new day.
study for test- pray in the temples - prepare meeting report- then pack stuffs for taiwan trip
** pictures for heading out with johan on his bike.
my first bike trip though.
i feel very insecure.
its just sitting on a chair which can move at speed 80.
ok. my photography skills are lousy.
ohohOHOH.
good news~
i have slimmed down!!
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10:54 PM
this is the first time through feeling lost in school.
i just checked my grades and i was given weird comments with nasty grades.
and i realised, the facilitator didnt give the grade according to how much we contribute to class or by attentive we were in class.
in fact, i dun really know how they grade us.
i was given a C grade for my industrial and food biotech module.
boring module it sure is.
for that day i presented one slide.
answering more than 5 questions listed in the worksheet.
which i am sure no other ppl have presented them.
my team mates presented like 3-5 slides.
as usual. its the normal grabbing of who-does-the-most-work-gets-the-better-grade.
comments for individual:
Participation:Avg (hello, everyone was like shouting answers across the class.. debate? or just discussion? i dunno man. it sure is competitive, and u cant expect 25 different answers for just one problem/topic right?)
Presentation:Avg (HELLO, i can extend my one slide with bullet points to 10 fucking slides if you want. i can talk hell lot more. but is it necessary to repeat what other teams have presented?)
RJ:Avg (yea. ur rj topic abt NSW is so out of the blue. okay. i might not do well for this. but please understand, we might not have the same view point as yours. cant u just accept it ?)
There was some confusion in your presentation. Did not see you come in as strongly in today's lesson. (at least i f***ing EXPLAINED the confusion of my fugly sentence, not like some other ppl, who made a wrong sentence and pushed it to their team mates to answer the fault. i bet i get the same UGLY grade they did!)
** yea. facilitators like that act to their emotional thoughts.
thats the problem with RP.
PATHETIC. no hard system to follow.
then comes another faci for genomics.
comment for individual:
Hi Jie Ying, that is a very observant reflection journal! Indeed everyone has their strength that makes the team a good one. I guess your role is to question and check the rationale in providing a better understanding in all that was read. ?? :-) Keep asking those questions but be careful not to turn too cynical. There is always a danger there.i always get a B grade from her.
she doesnt state how we can improve, doesnt state where we have gone correct.
sometimes i wonder if her comments are saracastically nice.
i cant take it!!
cynical?is that a personal statement or what? shucks!this genomics faci. words cant describe her.
u have to see how she run the lab session for my class.
holy f.
she didnt even request containers from the TSO to store the DNA on ice.
and when i asked for it, she can even ask me what for.
"for the DNA... if not degrade lei"
wah liao. did she like have a degree for genetics or something?
perhaps. coz of that she used the word cynical... i should ask my team mates if they have said something nasty in their rj.
damn RP.
i SHOULD HAVE appealed and gone to a better school.
**now darling, can u understand why i want to skip school so much?
it's this lost feeling you get everyday.
you participate in discussion.
just that u dun have the loud voice, or the fast speed to answer 0.1s after the question means a lower grade?
someone. SOMEONE.
enlighten me, please.
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10:08 PM
morning was brightened by oreo cheesecake from Aizat.
then proteomics lesson was like @#$!%
so i make myself happier by eating kokokrunch in class.
nuthin special.
but i want to highlight that i get satisfied emotionally easily.
met darling + fam for dinner
uber nice larr. esp the chicken near the old tanglin campus, then head for beancurd.
tralala. i should stop this 'report format'
and here comes the pics on sat night.
my old besties and my new espirit top.
enjoy ;)
like i have said.
i have turned lesbian.
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11:56 PM
darling, i have turned lesbian.
& behind that girl damn act cool lo.
bth.
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12:01 AM
suddenly
realised
in two months.....
a quarter is gone (trip to taiwan)
another quarter filled with tests
the other 2/3 with school and personal time
left one third with fyp?!
i just started my report.
data collection is 3/4 done.
stats analysis lit review is not done.
stats results no need to say.
poster presentation still empty.
*cries*
please, make my team mate work twice the amount of me.
not twice below. twice above!
then that will be 4 times of what she is doing now.
if not. make me super smart.
*cries*
darling, i wanna borrow ur brain juice.
:(
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10:44 PM
hurr.
how i wish i can skip school tml, then go to school in the noon to take my test, then back home again to rest.
but shit shit.
i have fyp meeting in my lunchbreak, and yea. something.
colloquim one is coming, final report has to be submitted in less than 2 months, poster slides have to be done in less than 2 months as well.
and where are our results for statistical analysis?!
:(
what regression. anova.bleh.whatever
i think i have to borrow the stats book from lib and do my lit review in my overseas trip.
&
concert is coming. (3 months time)
sudd im holding on to mallet parts.
and i cant play any of it.
its either reading of bassclef instead of trebleclef, or some weirdo running notes in semiquavers.
holywhatever.
i pray to you.
to not have diarrhea every two to three days.
well.. its just a thing in me.
whenever im stress, i shit.
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4:25 PM
HELP NEEDED!it needs to be submitted by 11.59pm todayhelp me complete my rj question (min 300 words)
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RJ Question: It was reported in the local news about the closure of the 3 month old University of New South Wales Asia. In lieu of the changing educational landscape, what perspective does it bring to your past and present experiences and what implications does it bring to the decisions that you will make in the future?* bullet points on this question are accepted
send your answers to me.
or post it in the comment below..
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im cute so u have to help.
bleh
*randome
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11:14 PM
its obviously the pms.
i am supposed to be sulking, coz of the pain and all.
but i feel happy.
perhaps coz i read reader's digest this morning.
and i realised how fortunate i am.
to have a wonderful and caring family.
friends who are here when i need them.
my sally to wipe my tears.
and darling to let me squeeze.
i get to eat and drink whatever i want, and as long as i can afford.
jieying, dun take things for granted.
wake up to reality.
and & change ur fucking damn nick!
bleh.
obviously X2, it's PMS.
oh. anyway.
me and mais had the CNF on our way home again. (cup noodles fetish)
then in the shopping centre, i saw this dishwasher guy.
and he said "hello" to me.... finally.
coz i have been ignoring his glances for over a week. bleh.
oh. i need to catch sheeps.
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10:25 PM
the sky is so blue in the other room...
anyway.
think about others before you start to say anything k?
why cant humans not be selfish?
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11:55 PM
the new speakers in class.
the aircon, speakers, curtains, aircon, projector ...... really gives the atmosphere of a theatre.
yea. we watch pirated shows. and lots of drama serials.
and we eat in class.
breaking rules is our hobby :]
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12:51 PM
walking and eating is probably something which increases the rate of indigestion.
however, its just for experience :]
i love cup noodles.
and the very first time darling cooked maggi mee with dried shallots, and some brown sauce on top and AND the msg soup.
**
do watch 'priceless'
in cinemas now.
damn nice!
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11:07 PM
the biggest diff in poly and jc students.
the character.
in fact, just compare me with my bf.
me - lazy, no sense of urgency, low memorising skills, no responsibility, crude
isaac- a bit lazy, high level of urgency, above average memorising skills, 100% responsible, 'si wen'
and then somehow or rather i understand when he got angry at me for being lazy or what-so-ever.
coz in poly, it is filled with these type of people.
so that is why we do not get good grades.
one scenario:
helper: hello, u are the third year student?
me: yea. u are nurul?
helper: yea. so wass up?
me: so am i meeting you or nana's team tml morning?
helper: me and hidayah
me: so nana will come next week?
helper: no she will be coming with cecilia in the noon
me: ok.
*after a while*
helper: eh. what do we have to bring ar?
me: labcoat and a ball-point pen
helper: huh.. lab coat ar?
helper: can dun bring anot?
me: yea. but u will need to sit there and not do anything
*after a while*
me: having difficulty?
helper: er.. no la.
me: ok
helper: lazy lo.
me: btw, tml we will be meeting at 8
helper: HUH. cecilia told us 8.30 lei
me: we need to start at 8.30 at NHG
helper: huh.. you know. well i stay at tamp.
helper: so confirm will late de lo
me: ok
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shit. like wtf.
i am being dragged down in my project!
and not only this k.
my team mate is seeing her bf almost everyday.
and she even complains that she needs to work, and no time to compile the data and do the work that we have shared, and tests.
HELLO.
没有时间了！！
and HELLO.
i have band, bf, family, and shits to attend k?
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ok.. just pouring my unhappiness.
i need someone to be here for me.
sh*t im getting demanding.
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HURRRR.
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10:54 PM
me and my bro. we are so sexy!
i love my hair + clip.
and my senior from deyi military band.
never spoke to each other till recently.
a must-but-hard-to-grab kind of guy..
eh. he damn fit de la.
-drools-
blehzz.
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4:08 PM
.devom
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11:23 PM
btw, im feeling fine already.
:]
i can even jump and eat my dinner!
kudos~~
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11:11 PM
the pink-hair-pin-girls. ignore the hand sign. :X [and damn look at her cramped face]
cute sadiq with my hair clip. [god
should make him a lady]
fyi, juliet's name on my shirt. riding on that pony, and waiting for my romeo.
pink is health? i was sick(can see from the color of my lips) anyway. girls out there... being natural is the biggest beauty. :]
i wonder if you love me, or are you trying to show to other people that you love me?
i prefer you to not have a car, so i can lie on ur shoulder and hold ur hand on my way home.
**
sudd, i feel this tear in my heart.
and i am sure that this is love. but im not sure about yours.
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11:58 PM
now who is the one doing emotional blackmail?
disrespect for food?
no comments. say all you want. so tired. fucked up. whatever.
u win.
simple.
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11:46 PM
ate little for today as well.
even the always-tasty-and-super-crunchy peanut butter waffle and the bubble milk tea doesnt satisfy me.
(waffle left half, and milk tea with 3/4.. really a waste)
oh wells. not studyin much for ut really helps.
and i think not really bothering the problem helps as well.
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list of to dos.
-paint my nails
-watch corner love drama serial
-clean my table
-read some book
-learn about euro4
-do housework.
thats for tml.
kudos jy :]
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11:07 PM
for the whole day.
i ate 1/10 of the porridge that he bought.
10 pieces of bbq chips
and 1 packet of wang wang.
my stomach is squeezing the juices. with my head spinning and feverish. then my hands so cold. + my knees so hot.
thank you for the people who show their care.
huici.mai.kc.yusri.sadiq.sherline.paul.hisyam.rizal.shihling.andyouknowwhoyouare.
**
i dunno. u came and left afterwards.
i was not able to entertain you.
and we were just wasting space and time by looking at each other.
aint it better if i can make full use of it to study, and u to run ur errands?
but. the thing is that. i need company when i feel sick and f-ing bad.
SO. am i requesting too much? OR should i even learn to be independent as this state?
f. i need a break.
and to hell with genomics, distinctions, whatever.
oh yea. at this point of critical time.
i should piece myself up and say "hey jy. you can overcome this. love is not everything, and u should do something about ur health before it gets worse! so buck up! do ur revision for the test tml. JIA YOU!"
like fuck i would. i rather kick someone in the balls.
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10:16 PM
mum asked if i have cried in the morning.
my heart nods.
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9:33 AM
im a singer!
me-jelly-mais
she looks like the pinky mice and me like donald duck
cool.
she just knows how to pose.
**
morningMORNING
i enjoy the...
- "jie jie.. wake up le hor" by my brother.. then he will put sally in between my arms.
- drizzling of rain down on my body on my way to the station.
- the gentle and cold breeze on my way to school.
- the kueh lapis packed by my mama.
kudos!!
hurr.
im suffering from tummyache from the drink that im having.
*nutrisoy -
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10:20 PM
we are all baddies.
we want things to be perfect for us, but we try to cut costs and working time whenever necessary to make ourselves feel lighter.
like i mentioned in prev post. money is not our ruler.
to me, it will never measure position and happiness. it can never buy them and time as well.
but.. i am so human.
that im taken into selfishness, greed and laziness.
i want to grow up to be successful in life.. blissfully.
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10:15 PM
i wish i can lie on the beach in your arms.
counting the number of stars, listening to the waves.
and orh orh.i wish i can be a superstar.
have a sexy body, excellent face, and a kind character.
then, i will be the perfect one for you.
i wish that no one will live in poverty.
and that money is not the way to measure happiness in life.
i wish that the earth will gain back its ozone.
not have natural selection and climate changes.
so we can have the same zoos all around the world.
i wish that humans are angels.
so understanding, friendly, free of worries, white.
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i wish to have unlimiting wishes.
so random.
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i feel very insecure.
darling, i have turned lesbian.
the sky is so blue in the other room...
the aircon, speakers, curtains, aircon, projector ...... really gives the atmosphere of a theatre.
walking and eating is probably something which increases the rate of indigestion.
i love my hair + clip.
and my senior from deyi military band.
eh. he damn fit de la.
the pink-hair-pin-girls. ignore the hand sign. :X [and damn look at her cramped face]
cute sadiq with my hair clip. [god should make him a lady]
fyi, juliet's name on my shirt. riding on that pony, and waiting for my romeo.
pink is health? i was sick(can see from the color of my lips) anyway. girls out there... being natural is the biggest beauty. :]
i wonder if you love me, or are you trying to show to other people that you love me?
i prefer you to not have a car, so i can lie on ur shoulder and hold ur hand on my way home.
im a singer!
me-jelly-mais
she looks like the pinky mice and me like donald duck
cool.
she just knows how to pose.