Tuesday, July 31, 2007

11:13 PM

i hope i can penned down what i thought immediately after my parents disagree to the tuition job that i have agreed to.

its amazing how every single time, i come up with a new decision, and it always and without fail have disagreements from my mum. and sometimes my dad.

this new tuition job is to teach K1 boy on chinese.
and it's one hour every day.

my parents gave hell lots of excuses on why i shouldn't take up the job now.
but. BUT BUT. all i want to do is to just challenge myself.
to slowly adapt to the self-generating-income and half-studying-half-working environement and ALSO to get good grades as well.

and yea. down the drain.
plus, i fucking agreed that person to go down everyday starting from tml.
and now?!

i admire parents who are able to look over the fact that interests play a better role than leading a good life in the future.
for sure, right now, i am getting this job to be able to get the cash to do something i am interested in.
and all they think is that i have to get good grades to get a good life in future.

should i flunk my studies now?
it's just a way to get the message across, but it didnt cross over the formal way... so i guess the informal and 'hard' method will work.

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Saturday, July 28, 2007

11:02 PM

if you dun really go and ponder about how everything comes to an end, you will just enjoy the time doing certain things. it applies to everything.

though i dun get to see my darling as often as my classmates/friends do, im happy that he is happy when we spend time together. &&& after spending time together and untogether (if there is this word) for almost a year... i was able to make my darling realised things that i want him to.

first - to stay young at heart
second - to be happy
third - to smile more



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Thursday, July 26, 2007

10:58 PM

i had lots of things to say today. just because i told myself to observe my surroundings than to play a part in it.

in the morning all was good till lunch. that nasi lemak auntie 'pian' my cash lo.
i ordered two dishes, and i guess it will be around $2.50, then she go and add one more dish and make it $3.10
so i said "auntie, i dun want that dish"
auntie said "$3.10"
no point arguing with mindless auntie, guess she couldnt understand -i dun want- so i pitied her and dug out my $3 left for july.

then to the photocopy and printing shop. and that indian uncle charged me $1.05 for printing 10 pages.
the moment he replied $1.05, i closed my wallet and asked him "what? how much is a piece?"
then i sarcastically flipped the pieces counting them like how elmo counts the sheeps.
then he "OH OH. SORRY"
ok. a bit more brain compared to nasi lemak auntie, just that not concentrating on work nia.

and after which, lessons (i slept, and yawned lots) tests ( people say it's easy, to me it's not)

hoho. band prac was really testing my skills man.
we played first suite in Eb (my fav song!!)
there was this solo for bass drum. one pathetic hit i also like weakling~

neh mind k. when i went home. this ex colleague of mine started to talk past with me.
and 'buay song' me.
i really dun understand.
and says to spread 'it' around.

if you claimed that im so fugly ugly already, then why make a shithole out of it?

what can you gain?

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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

10:34 PM

there is this rush of adrenalin and some other hormones such as progesterone and os-something when i make a sudden change to my study plan. well, it doesnt really happen all the time.. sometimes i do get frustrated when my study plan goes out of control. but today is real fine. i get to see darling acting cute in front of camera, and had dinner with his mama at xiang gang jie.

我好开心WOR!

i think partly coz i score another good grade for lab management...
to hell with that pink jacket faci woman!!! lab management sux.

woooo. wonder how many chromosomes u have in your body?
here is a trick.
hold your right hand if you are a guy, and your left hand (girl) in front of your face.
then u see this line joining from the middle finger to the extreme end of the side of your pinky.
to know exactly how many chromosomes you have... count the number of lines cutting across that line.
use a magnifying glass if needed.
normal homo sapiens have 23 pairs of chromosomes.
whats yours?

have fun!

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Tuesday, July 24, 2007

11:26 PM

bad bad day.

when the mood is not right.. all jieying need is junk food.

crap. i should change.

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Monday, July 23, 2007

9:45 PM

i so feel like eating hell much.

sashimi buffet + dim sum buffet + lagsane buffet (if there is!!)

hurr. the probby is ----> no $$

know what?
i have to make myself to give tuition.

neh mind WOR.
a chance to eat healthy stuffs and diet with darling.
:]

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Saturday, July 21, 2007

9:49 PM

swensen's with family for dinner. i ate ceasar salad with ultra huge utensils + retarded face.
then there were animae-looking-clouds floating above rp ytd.
as you can seee. i need a better phone cam.
another photo which i think is nice but looks so normal.
then preperation for presentation :]


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Friday, July 20, 2007

10:58 PM

i have been given bad grades for the past week and the first two days of this week. (week as in school week)

:( i hope i get an A for tml's presentation.

jieying. jia you!
slack after 3pm tml!!!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

10:19 PM

i am so looking forward to the end of this semester.
with half completion of my phase II study of course.

after last week's of 4 days continuous tests, it was quite hard for me to calm down and have fun.
just this morning, i got so tired of everything, and i decided to watch bleach again.

woohoo. and yeapps. i got my slacking mood back... :]

im so looking forward to everything right now.
and because... i am starting to shake off all the stress from my head.

and my ass of coz.. hahahaha

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

4:58 PM

the first step to being independent....

is to place yourself before others...
ethical?


well. not for me.

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Monday, July 16, 2007

11:13 PM

i guess like what u said. i should be more independent.
and i should just open myself up to more people to know what i really want in life.

all i need is just someone to acc me.

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Sunday, July 15, 2007

10:28 PM

i am such a lazy person, you can see directly it from ma face as if i have the word 'lazy bum' on my forehead.

impt things are coming up. yet i have become totally sick of it.
although previously i have already been sick of it....
this time round.. it is ultra ultra mega mega sick and tired of having to do data collection, project, and school tests, por-ing the faci in class... blah blah blah.

it is like NEVER ENDING.
since march.. or feb to be exact.

hurrrr. i want my old days back.
the days which i can pon up to 5 or 6 days every module and still score a B+....

i want to SKIP SCHOOL. arrrrggghhhh

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2:10 PM

i have finally start to appreciate stories or nags from older generation.

my mum was sharing with me the role of responsibility in life and the impact of whatever decision people make now.

i am 19. some other 19's out there have already worked half of their life, and are still working, to gain exposure, meet new friends, and have a higher income. some other 19's are still reaching out both of their hands to their mummies and daddies for money, to get whaetver they want. and when they dont, they will hate them to the core. so..... what 19 am i? i guess im like a hermit, still sticking to the old house of mine, looking at other's nice shells and still wondering to shift over, and having all the possibilities of pros and cons in my mind.

ok back to responsibility in life. i have this person X who was closely related to me before. and now, person X has went straight ahead for its' new desires despite thinking of the future possibilities to its' closests. of course my mum did all the thinking for person X, having its' closest to not forgive its' decision, and being over upset about the sudden change. person X tried to show care by showering gifts weekly to its' closests, though some of the closests still stick to it, but when they mature, the closests will start to think where has it gone to when the closests needs only a simple hug?

nonetheless, following the normal routine... my mum cried all over again, and me being infected over it, cried too. how can one person change so much over such a small period of time?
hasn't that one person lined out all the negative effects of the decision?

i shall describe person X as negligent, undependable and immature.
and i hope its' closests will live happily without it.
i love its' closests.

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Thursday, July 12, 2007

11:51 PM

i have finally finished my tests + abstract for congress.
fyi, the roller blading IG is not successful in application. so yea..

i so feel like skipping sch, prepare for my colloquim I and hug darling.

ohOH. my genomics test grade dropped :(

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

2:10 PM

okok. 3 tests down!

1 more to go!

chiong jieying CHIONG AR~~~~~~

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Monday, July 09, 2007

9:38 PM

1 test down.. 3 more to go!

加油！


**
against animal testing please!

and wear cosmetics only when there is a need.
for god's sake, dun only eat vegetarian to stop killing of animals....
cosmetics are tested on animals as well, for toxicity and safety on complex organisms.
&&&&& dun think body shop is against animal testing.
my classmate found that they use results from other companies who did animal testing, and then claim that their products are safe....

like wth?

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Sunday, July 08, 2007

10:19 PM

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Friday, July 06, 2007

11:06 PM

i remembered buying some cool handphone strap for my dad for his birthday years ago.
probably when i was in sec2. it was something me and my bro can afford.
and at that time me and my bro felt that money was like everything.
it can buy happiness. but we do not know that it can buy shit as well.

anyways. my dad didnt appreciate that hp strap, but that doesnt mean he didnt appreciate our love. although we looked forward to seeing him putting that on his phone, but we also tried to convince ourselves that the strap is not dad's style. and a few years later (which is now) me and my bro realised that actions work better than presents to show love.
and to him, money may not mean everything. and if you dun spend your money recklessly, you wont buy shit.

**
what i am trying to say here is putting a real life thingy to represent that each and every human has different opinion.
and what we are unable to tolerate is other people's opinions, discussion topic, and people going against us.
MAYBE, we are only able to tolerate and be patient, listen out to what people have to say for the first few years? but as time pass.. we just mumble to ourselves "just do it like that la. why small stuffs also want to be so detailed?"

main point is i am tired of everything.

tired of band pracs with me playing like some slow snail.
tired of tests and daily grades being low.
tired of having a laptop which starts up using 10 mins.
tired of wanting to shop, but with no one to shop with OR no money OR no time. (they just take turn to happen.)
tired of wanting good grades.
tired of travelling to school.
tired of unable to control my diet.
tired of wanting to speak my mind out, but its always stuck inside my heart.
tired of paul not speaking 'to the point' with me.
tired of genomics, proteomics, lab management & food biotech.
tired of life.

really really really.
i want to go escape theme park.
scream with me... anyone?

why am i limiting myself?
i should open myself to more people.
:( i feel like crying.


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Thursday, July 05, 2007

11:47 PM

ooooh! i want M&Ms!! [that's my wrist rest duck]
nothing is perfect de lo.
same height for all trees.
friendly biscuit
at the NHG PPC.. nothing better to do. really.
its a sign of boredom + waiting + tolerance

my darling is suffering from overeating.


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Wednesday, July 04, 2007

10:13 PM

hmm. i cant upload the damn photos.
i have wasted 15 mins on it.

argh.
tml.

sorryyyy

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5:12 PM

hohoho.
i have found the remedy to my lost 'sense of direction'

step 1: take a deep breath
step 2: take things easy
step 3: life is not as strenous as what you think it is.
step 4: smile
step 5: do what you are suppose to be doing.

5 steps. my fav no. again!

wee~
will post photos tonight
:]

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Tuesday, July 03, 2007

10:46 PM

i feel so lost.

its like a common sense thing when everytime u travel up the lift in the school, and when u get out, you know exactly where to turn to.
*sads* since 2 days ago.. i lost this common sense of mine.

& it somehow altered my state.
somehow i feel that im just lost in within the reports, meeting reports, tests and shits.
just stuck in this whole pile of invisible shit.

i so want to have holidays now. to go to some random full of trees place. and find my sense of direction back.

if you get what i mean.
hurrrrrrrr.

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Monday, July 02, 2007

11:03 PM

just fyi, and not fyi if you dun want to know.

one test tml. 3 tests next week. then project presentation on the following saturday.
meanwhile non-school stuffs will be band, darling, family and rollerblading.

i know i can manage my time well.
just dun fall sick ;]

**
let the power of quality small minds rule!

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