2:47 PM
why do so many people praise me about my character/ looks/ attitude/ yada yada... and yet he decides to give up on me?
perhaps still not good enough.
oh wells.
still.. heart damn painful when flashes occur.
argh. dial 995 ...please someone...
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11:15 PM
yeah... trip to pulau ubin with ingela and anders.
long hair barbie live!
ok. bloody blogger doesnt allow me to post any more photos.
or perhaps it's my network.
either way okay!
idiot!
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9:42 PM
had a rather mind feeding day.
as in... i talked to myself quite a lot. too much.
had my brother piggy backed me to the toilet this morning.
yes. i know this should be a shameful act. but he ran around the house with me on his back..
luckily didnt get any unnecessary bruises.
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so read through the theory book before the driving test...
met for trial run.
so finally go for test!
had a lenient tester, and he passed me for editing my mistake (serious) on the second time the same scenario happened.
WEEEE.
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torturable thing to wait for the pathetic slip of paper.
no longer than my forearm.
*sighs*
and had to get back to work to settle some advert stuffs.
*sighs*
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after work, met Anders and he bought me a Dodge Chancer!
weee~
the first present after since isaac gave me a watch.
went to his place. and it's filled with food.
wished i could taste the fish that ingela prepared.. but have to go home and show the 'surprise' to my parents. (they didn't know about it)
met mary ann at the station. (long story)
and erm upon reaching home. parents aren't really supportive of me giving the 'surprise'
perhaps their mindset is too traditional.
they insisted me to drive in the day where the sun comes out bl abl abla.
so i stared at the tv for about 30 mins. and wondered "why did things turn out this way?"
then showered. ate lots of cookies. (didnt buy dinner)
then commit to my computer.
wanted to work on the songs for tml's jamming but just couldnt get processed.
too upset.
:(
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10:13 PM
im feeling so empty.
need someone from an unbiased stand to talk to me.
follow your feelings? follow realistic points?
i need to make a decision in which i wont regret later in life.
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5:24 PM
the second day when ingela's in singapore, i requested her to make a swedish meal.
lalala. she failed in the meatballs, but the patties are super delicious yummmy.
guess swedish love to cook their own.
or maybe it's the distance.. cause if they are lazy to cook, they will starve.
if singaporeans are lazy to cook, just go down and buy la!
within 5 mins gao tim liao!
went to pulau ubin today.
will upload when i get the photo file.
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11:47 PM
im leaving it all.
thanks for the assurance.
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4:52 PM
Lots of hoo-haa happened at work today.
which is a roll over of mistakes from previous workers then BAAM, got to me..
but it's okay.
feels minor compared to last night.
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11:20 PM
"All I want is someone who I can speak to about you. But, you are the only one whom I managed to speak well to."if only i have the freedom to choose the religion that i can go to.
i will follow you.
so many things i want to say.
just end up converting them to tears instead.
im so damn depressed.
maybe i need more chocolates in my life.
urgh f.
forget it.
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12:10 AM
went to Yong Peng, Muar, and Malacca all in one day!
certainly valuable lesson. Esp on emotional values and EQ.
glad that my boss is a holy good example on that.
being able to tolerate amplified small mistakes is surely difficult!
shant mention what happened after reaching singapore.
fallen too deep.
ciao.
i wanna go for bob the builder day.
read mai's blog. and bloody hell. nv invite me. wah lao. i want to complain!
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11:48 PM
did the another test to double confirm the disease.. and wee. im FREEE.
lala. happy! now left only the iron thing to deal with.
working on it! got to eat more COW.
met paul today.
went karaoke.
cant believe we sang all the old school songs.
and songs that are bloody slow.
ok. im tired. not thinking. nite.
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9:36 PM
today is kinda self reflecting for me.
slacked as much as i can during work. (as usual; and i know my boss may be reading this..)
ANYWAY, cooked dinner for bro and mum. (terriyaki salmon and salad side；おいしい)
think my mum wondering what happened to me.. cause i did housework on saturday mornin (sweep and clean the floor, and YES i need to let everybody know!)
oh wells. sometimes cooking is fun. :]
ok. so met alicia on sunday for beer. this is her cute little picture before she gets her ortho done.
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on sunday, went for the bridge walk with dad and aunts.
超级好玩！
took 2 hours from Alexandra Arch to Mt Faber and back again.
Saw 'MRT' and realised it was MaRang Trail. what a joke, in the middle of nowhere.
this is henderson waves. bridge made of timbre. will feel better if sandwiches are there!
on our way back, me and dad took the earth trail, and met this puny したけ.
obviously poisonous.
ok. i was intending to jump in this next picture, but the camera was too slow in its' shuttering.
but manage to take the muscles i have on my thighs *winks*
me and my aunts at henderson waves, enjoying ourselves...
erm. my lunch surprise last week.
that's all.
oh oh. and i thought of something funny.
ok.. here goes.
why do thumbdrives like to be slot into the macbook?
BECAUSE it clears all sins! (com-viruses)
hehe. im wonky~
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11:38 PM
i grabbed my heart.
felt it tearing again.
to it's pieces.
none i have now.
shook my head.
no. i dun want it to be like that 'first time' again.
whatever.
no more stupid visits again.
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11:12 PM
lol. i can only upload one photo.
STUPID BLOGGER.
ok. will try again tml.
anyway, had a very interesting lunch appt today.
totally blew my mind off.
there are so many parts of singapore that i havent seen.
today is extraordinary.
:]
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10:51 PM
having a disease.
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had pepparkakor with someone by the bench.
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dun wanna think about it. *shakes head*
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10:57 AM
i feel like crying.
but it feels like i shouldn't contribute much into it.
just afraid that it will end up like that first thing.
when i have decided to close the doors, i mean it.
i dun want to listen to the empathy anymore.
somehow it just relates back.
listening no more.
enough.
...
..
.
time to play around and see how things go.
only rich guys in queue please.
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11:58 PM
have i said i dun love you anymore?
or do u assume that?
when i dun mentioned i love you, what are your emotional thoughts like?
1) she doesnt love me anymore
2) she is just considering
3) she is a player! F***
4) what does she want from me? why isnt she saying it?
5) TELL ME YOU LOVE ME BITCHH
6) i should just forget about it
lots more to go. lots of negative and one positive.
possibly cause im a pessi person.
i seriously hope you can dun assume on things.
when i try to make myself think that love between us is still workable, it seemed like i have a mental blockout.
perhaps to me now, relationship is nuthing more to just a game.
i think i truly need a break.
dun tell me you love me.
prove it.
saying "i dun want you to feel hurt" and leaving me, saying that "i think this is the best solution."IS NOT HELPING.
nor will it put back the relationship.
i guess i will just put your ONCE considerate actions to the back of my mind.
to just take note that yes. you ARE a good friend.
and that you just want to MAINTAIN it that way.
alright. enough said. really jy ENOUGH SAID.
what's the point with hanging around a guy, when he himself know no shit of what he wants in the relationship?
simply saying i love you is not easy my dear.
i am not asking for your money, or your protection over me, or asking you to be more handsome, or want you to change your attitude...
where is that pathetic trust?
maybe i should rephrase.
where is that pathetic trust in you?
and do u trust Him? your mentor? or me? or yourself?
answer: you have no clue.
P A T H E T I C.
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10:23 PM
what f-ing happened?
roars.
couldnt be bothered.
more like another come and go situation again.
guys are more or less the same.
once they are done with the meal, wipe their mouths, pay the bill and off they go.
im not believing in love again.
it's all bullshit.
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1:52 PM
SO MUCH FOR THESE TWO MONTHS.
what a selfish person.
i hope you regret. like everybody else does. and then go eat your own shit some days later.
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this is henderson waves. bridge made of timbre. will feel better if sandwiches are there!
on our way back, me and dad took the earth trail, and met this puny したけ.
ok. i was intending to jump in this next picture, but the camera was too slow in its' shuttering.
me and my aunts at henderson waves, enjoying ourselves...
